Day 432 - Fear and Greed – Part 2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make investment and trade decisions for any other reason that pattern recognition.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a trader with a positive resonance in my mind wherein I create an ego point in association with the physical action of making trades.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel superior / desire to be superior within the point of trading not realizing that this is derived from the starting point of feeling inferior which is fear of not being enough / fear of not being as good as others.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold within and as myself a resonant fear of not being as good as / fear of being less than others within and as myself and to then be directed by it, instead of being directed by breath and the purpose of creating a world of equality wherein I / we live within  the physical reality that we are all in fact equals with different abilities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trade and invest impulsively / emotionally instead of breathing and following a principle behind each and every decision.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear money.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire money for the sake of having money, which is greed, in order to ease my fear of money / not having enough money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within and as how much money I have wherein the more money I have the more superior I am and vise versa; instead of realizing that I am a physical being and that never changes regardless of the amount of money I have and thus my value never changes nor does anyone else’s due to the amount of money anyone may or may not have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the words freedom and money as if they somehow are a function of each other.  And I suppose they are within and as the system, as the more money one has the more one can do in the system, but in regards to real freedom, money has no bearing on the stopping of the mind as that is a personal commitment, with the exception that money can provide the tools and living support necessary to help one stop the mind, but money itself does not stop the mind.  Thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to EQUATE money to freedom, rather than seeing it for what it is as a tool to support one to acquire the support to stop the mind. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear acting irresponsibly by losing money in the stock market, or any other type of invest or trade that I may make, especially when I see an investment going down in price unexpectedly.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine others laughing, mocking, and scolding me for losing money in an investment or trade telling me things like “you should know better”, “you cannot take such risks!” “you are irresponsible”.  As a reaction to this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself react further with becoming emotionally hasty and impatient becoming mind possessed to act impulsively making rash decisions to “sell” in order to “protect” myself from this (real or imagined), instead of committing to a disciplined trading and investing approach where I, without emotion and within as breath, only make a decision to buy or sell based upon criteria that I have defined in advance, and also based on specific patterns and trends that I have also learned to recognize in advance.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, in the past, get worked up into an emotional frenzy (as described above), and then become completely mind-possessed where I physically stop everything that I am doing, go to the computer place my hands on the keyboard and begin typing into the keyboard a sell trade based upon pure emotion where I am not here directing me within and as breath.  I commit myself to, when faced with the point of selling, this is usually based on the primary point of Fear of Loss, and thus I commit myself to stop everything in that moment by keeping my hands flat on the desk or on my lap or completely walking away from the computer and doing nothing except breathing until I ground these emotions into and within and as the physical, putting out the fire.  I commit myself to breathe methodically and to remind myself that I must stick to my pre-arranged patterns and buy and selling commitments.  I commit myself to decide in advance the criteria that is required to sell a security AKA stop loss, and stick to it no matter what.

Day 432 - Fear and Greed – Part 1

I have observed markets for a couple of decades now, but have not put much money into it, just watched.  With that said, I have had some limited success, such as buying Bitcoin at $889 just before it went to 20k, buying Litecoin at $53 just before it went to $420, and buying silver bullion at $33 just before it spiked to $50.  I was 3 for 3 on these calls and could have literally made close to 80k between all three of them if I had a discipline established before-hand.  Instead, I made a sum of about 5k between all three of these. 

Outside of that, I have watched countless hours of technical analysis on youtube and have thus developed the ability of technical analysis for myself very nicely.  I have also developed the skill of identifying trends early to a fairly good degree.  These abilities I have already developed for myself are a great platform to be a successful investor (of course these abilities are always being improved) – evidenced as recently I was able to call the bottom of the stock market crash in late March of this year and then pick the hottest sector, mining stocks, buying at their all time lows.  Two months later, between mining stocks and one other stock where I literally doubled my money in one day, I am up 5k from an initial $7,500 investment financed with 0 percent interest credit cards.  That is a pretty good return in these last couple of months, and shows promise; but if I had my shit together, I could have easily more than doubled my money in these last 2 months with the same investments. 

So, with all of this said, I would like to take investing very seriously now, and hone this skill to the point where I can make a living off this on the side.  This would be ideal because this skill could easily make me very wealthy in my spare time, while then allowing me to turn my attention to what I would really would like to do full-time: Techno Tutor sales, something that is not easy to do while working a traditional 9 to 5 in sales like I do now, and has been a point of frustration for me for years now. 

So, this success in the markets in the last couple of months says to me that this could be a turning point for me.  This is the first writing, to help hone my skills as an investor, using TT and self-forgiveness to help me make money easily so that I can then focus more time on creating a world that is best for all through the development of myself as a successful Techno Tutor distributor.  The TT word list I have already done.  The next writings will be SF on the TT word list.

Day 431 – Conspiracy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear conspiracies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear restrictions to my freedoms

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being heard.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create within myself the desire to be heard based on this fear. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being silenced.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear digital currency and the potential for enslavement that it can bring with it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the social credit score.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the new world order.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear a world order that is different than what I have been living in since I was born.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become attached / self-identified with this current world order.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place positive value in this current world order above life itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear control / to fear being controlled and thereby, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and manifest within and as myself the desire to control others and what they think and perceive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value in freedom and then react in fear to the idea of loosing it.  I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I have never really in-fact lived and experienced freedom because all this time I have been enslaved to my mind as energy and never really lived here, free, as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear martial law. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear vaccines and fear being vaccinated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear authority.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist authority and within that create the illusion of me pictured in my mind as defying authority / as empowered  when in fact my resistance is futile as I remained enslaved continuously to the voice in my head and also this world system as a reflection of my inner enslavement.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being a sheep.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others being sheep and the consequences that being a sheep can bring on us collectively.  However, within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand, that this is a self-righteous idea / self-image that is a manifested illusion of me being somehow not as complicit in this manifested reality as it is now because I believe myself to not be a sheep – when in fact, sheep or not, so long as I am a slave to that little voice in my head, I am equally manifesting this current world order equal and one with everyone else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being brainwashed.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to expose others and being brainwashed within and as a form of spite.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear judgement.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the day of the lord AKA that point in time of irreversible consequence when it is too late.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being lied to about the shape of the earth.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to turn the shape of the earth from a simple point of self-honest investigation to a point of polarity where I judge others who do not come to the same conclusion as me, and within in this polarity I create and generate energy as characters and personalities which leads to more enslavement, regardless of the shape of the earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the end of days.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the United Nations and Agenda 2030.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the clever implementation of a global “governance” system under the guise of “saving the planet” orchestrated by the UN of which usurps our ability to govern ourselves as we give up our freedoms to an all powerful sovereign for a feeling of security. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being ruled over in secret by a group of satanic pedophiles.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear to the idea and belief that “it’s too late” and “there’s not enough time”.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste in inordinate amount of time making excuses and justifications for why I cannot stand up and stop all this insanity within and as myself.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project this onto others and our current time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being forced to do something and to be restricted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear behavior modification and its potential through technology / technological enslavement.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear fake science and thus react in anger and disdain towards others who believe to be real the same science that I see as fake.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being manipulated by hidden powers by and through fake science and fake statistics, when in fact this is reflection of my enslavement to my own mind as I am currently ruled over by my mind because I have not slowed down enough to see the difference between my illusory digital self as my mind and my real self as a physical being, due to my own apathy and spite.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear fake religion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear propaganda.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the Nazis

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having a false paradigm of reality being presented as real by so-called authorities.  Within this, and within the point of “as within / so without” – I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live a false paradigm within and as myself as my mind as the illusion of my manifested digital personalities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the point of divide and conquer through others creating and presenting false dichotomies and manipulation to me as if it is real, not realizing that I also stand divided and conquered within ans as myself when I live as the mind.

I see, realize, and understand that the world I live in today is a manifested consequence of how I, as all-one, have been living for billions of years, within and as myself, life after life, evolving this reality over time without even realizing it, due to my apathy, spite, and self-interest, to what it is now in its manifested form of and as severe restrictions and severe suffering for most of the world where we are ruled in secret by psychopaths – and that within this I have no one to point a finger at but myself.  Thus, I commit myself to perfect and purify my vocabulary and my relationship to words, where I step by step, breath by breath, day by day consistently diffuse, dismantle, and release myself from my digital personalities and thereby recreate myself and birth myself as life as a living physical being as the living example of the solution to what is here.  I see, realize, and understand that where we are right now in our current process, with the world the way it is now, that we really may be out of time and that consequence may over take us, but I commit myself to not let that stop me from standing as an example of the real solution to what is here now, and thus pressing through fearlessly, consistently in the remaining time I / we have to change this world for what is best for all  - - changing my inner reality into what I desire to see in this outer world, and then eventually also doing my best to be changing this outer world to reflect my inner world as a living being with no mind - where we can all hopefully have real fun equal and one, one day.