Day 43 – Self Forgiveness on choosing the mind over the breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give in to my mind at that critical moment where I can either choose to breathe or choose to participate in thoughts, feelings, and emotions because I enjoy thoughts, feelings, and emotions and am afraid of not living without them.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the emotion of fear to living here without participating in thoughts, feelings, and emotions.

 

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to push through and experience what it is to live here as the breath rather than participate in thoughts, feelings, and emotions.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my life would be lacking if I were to just remain here in and as the breath in every moment – especially the moment when I am ‘tempting myself’ to participate in thoughts, feelings, and emotions and/or experiences that will generate thoughts, feelings, and emotions.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my life will be boring without participating in my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give in to the ‘power’ of my mind as it ‘seduces’ me with the energetic high of thinking, feeling, and emoting in those critical moments where I am aware that I am about to go into my mind and I chose to do so just because I ‘can’t resist’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought that ‘I cannot resist’ my mind and the experiences I can generate from participating in thoughts, feelings, and emotions.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not follow through with the corrective application part of past self-forgiveness’s because in the moment that I am ‘tempting myself’ I give-in because I believe that I cannot resist and that my life would be lacking and boring if I were to do so.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that when I give-in and participate yet again on past self-forgiveness’s that I time-loop and then rebuild the entire construct again in a slightly different way where then I need to write that point out again and then stop again – prolonging my process and making it that much harder.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to time-loop on various topics because I just cannot resist.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the self-created belief that I cannot resist the energy of the mind and the experiences of the mind generated by thoughts, feelings, and emotions, pictures in my mind, and memories and future projections.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the self-created belief that I cannot live without the thoughts, feelings, and emotions that I choose to participate in because I would otherwise be bored and ‘empty’ and then within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to time-loop and create more systems and constructs to dismantle.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have all the time in the world to stop my mind, when in fact I just have this one life and maybe a shot in the afterlife.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to choose my mind over breathing in those moments when thoughts, feelings, and emotions begin to come up and I have the awareness that I can stop, that I can breathe.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make excuses and justifications to participate in the mind rather than stop in the moment of making any excuses and justifications and just breathe.

 

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to not apply myself consistently enough to write out, in high detail, all the excuses and justifications that I create to go back into my mind/experience.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to simply stop and breath when the moment that the ‘I’m bored construct’ comes up because I have already written about this and already know it is bullshit and therefore now I just need to breathe.