Its
been six years since I first heard the Desteni
Message. Its been almost 5 years since I really understood what it
is that I had to do. For the last 5 years, I have made excuse after
excuse and justification after justification to not stand and breathe
and stop all reactions, justifications, emotions, thoughts, feelings,
and my entire existence as a per-programmed slave to my mind. I have
written about many things. I have stopped considerably compared to
where I was 5 years ago. But, I still accept and allow myself to
participate in my mind at those critical times when I see what it is
that I am doing and then do it any way. In other words, I see that I
am going into a reaction, or a mind-construct, or emotion, etc and
accept and allow it any way because I fear not being able to not go
into these things. I fear what I would be if I just stopped and
breathed through these things. I fear that I would be bored. I fear
that I would miss-out. And sometimes, I just want to participate in
my mind and all of its 'wonderful' reactions.
But
while all this is going on, the world is literally on fire. The
Pacific Ocean is boiling from Fukashima for crying out loud!
Wars are breaking out. People are starving to death. The economies
of the world are all collapsing. Chaos is coming, and the solution
is for those of us who can hear the message of Destine to stand-up
and stop accepting and allowing ourselves to participate in the
systematic systems of the mind that are the root of all this; and
then to take action when the time comes in this physical reality -
to
be the solution, to
show
the
world that our
'nature' can indeed be changed,
that we can in fact be what is best for all and bring a solution to
the world that is best for all. And, this will never happen so long
as I accept and allow myself to make excuses and justifications to
not change.
I
see this most when I talk to others about Desteni
and what we stand for. And invariably I hear 'but this is just human
nature, it will never change'. And then I get angry at this inside,
but at the same time I cannot argue this because I am doing the same
thing! I am not changing. I am proving their point! Unless one
actually changes, then all one is doing is promoting a bunch of noble
ideas, just like all the other fools who have come and gone over the
ages.
One
has to be the change. One has to literally breathe the change into
existence, breath, by, breath. One has to slow oneself down, sort
oneself out, make the self commitments, and the keep them! Then we
can show the world that there is another way. Then one can consider
oneself as a self-responsible human being who stands for all life
equal and one. Until then, it is just a religion.
I
forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the
thought 'just one more time and then I will stop'
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to willfully
participate in thoughts, feelings, and emotions that I have already
identified just because I believe that I cannot resist.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate
in the thought that 'I cannot resist' when and as I am faced with
things that I have already identified as of the mind and separation
and abuse.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe
that I would be bored if I were to not participate in
activities
that I have already made self-commitments to stop.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe
that my life would be boring and unfulfilling
if I were to not participate in
the reactions and 'pleasures' of the mind.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to time-loop
just because I would rather participate in my mind and all its
reactions, feelings, emotions, desires, thoughts.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make
excuses instead of sitting myself down and writing out all
mind-systems that I cannot stop in one breathe – by simply
breathing.
When
and as I see myself in a situation that I recognize as “I have
written about this” or “this is of the mind” and I see,
realize, and understand that I DONT have to participate and that I
can simply breathe and stop, I stop and I breathe. I follow through
with my self-commitments because I see, realize, and understand that
unless I do, I will never be free, I will always be the problem with
this world, and I must walk the change that I seek into existence.
And
thus, I commitment myself to stopping: all reactions, all desires,
acting on desires, all thoughts, feelings, and emotions, all beliefs,
and all and everything that I recognize, in that moment when these
things 'pop-up', and breathe instead of going into them.
And
thus:
I
commit myself to breathing and NOT giving in to the whims of my mind.
I
commit myself to remaining here within and as the breath in every
moment. And when I fail, when I participate anyway, I commit myself
to writing these systems out in detail so as to reach a point where I
can stop.
I
commit myself to no longer accept and allow justifications to
participate in my mind.
I
commit myself to stand as the physical, of life, one and equal with
all as me, in every breath, with
no mind.
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