JTL Day 54 – Day 7 of 21 days of Writing Every Day – More On Worry

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into worry.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not worrying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be consumed with worry to the extent that I am not able to pay attention to what is going on and to what I need to do to practically function and take care of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I don’t worry, the worst case scenario might happen to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to solve my problems by worrying about them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to avoid the worst case scenario by thinking about all possible solutions over and over again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become consumed with worry to the extent that I am not able to be here and keep my self commitments because I fear what might happen to me if I don’t worry.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that worrying is going to bring about a solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what might happen to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to control the future through worrying about it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I might not be able to handle or live through certain adverse consequences that might happen to me, and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into worry as a solution or way to avoid these potential consequences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not doing everything that I can if I am not worrying about something constantly trying to find a way out of a potentially adverse consequence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not worrying about situations that could cost me money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into worry and fear of not worrying to the extent that I am not able to concentrate on my day-to-day practical tasks.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold imaginary conversations and scenarios in my head where everything works out as to try to ease my fears and come up with solutions to my problems over and over again to the point where I am not here and completely self consumed and in my head.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that worrying and participating in fear is physically exhausting and increases the amount of sleep I need; and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage my productive time with worry and fear and then excesses sleep which is needed to recharge my mind consciousness system and rejuvenate my body from being depleted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage my process of change and stopping my mind by allowing myself to go into worry and fear which further activities my mind consciousness system, creating more systems of control over me and giving more power to my mind thereby weakening and exhausting my physical body which is like a battery supplying energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feed of the energy generated by worrying and fearing the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that going into worry and fear charges my mind and diminishes me as a psychical being – thereby enslaving myself to energy and systems. And within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a slave to my mind and participate in the fear of not solving my problems with thinking, feeling, and emoting rather than just breathing, remaining here, and practically walking solutions.

When and as I see myself going into fear and worry to solve problems in my life, I stop and I breathe. I do not accept and allow myself to go into worry and fear as a way to solve problems because I see realize, and understand that worrying will not have any affect on the future and will only charge my mind consciousness system and weaken my body thus diminishing me as life. And thus, I commit myself to stopping my participation in worry and fear over future events by breathing and stopping my mind.

When and as I see myself going into worry because I have participated in thoughts that I am too scared to stop worrying I stop and I breathe because I see, realize, and understand that I am just playing games with myself to find ways around my self commitment not too go into worry as a form of problem resolution. And thus, I commit myself to breathing, and then finding practical ways to solve my 'problems' and then walking them into reality breath-by-breath with no mind interference.