Wednesday, August 21, 2013

TL Day 52 – Day 5 of 21 days of Writing Every Day – Scary Work Stuff Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought that ‘I may not be able to survive in this world system because I am unable to make sufficient income”



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought that ‘I am per-programmed to be a looser, and therefore I can do nothing about my current financial situation’



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I am not able to make enough money to survive that somehow this shows me that I am unable to survive in this system and therefore am inferior to those who do well in this system.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the emotional experience of fear to the thought and idea that ‘I am not able to survive in this system because of the physical evidence to constant financial stress’



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought that ‘I may loose my wife and kids if I cannot find a way to make money in this system; and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the emotional experience of fear and worry to the thought that I may loose my wife and kids because I cannot take care of them financially’.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the loss of money.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the loss of my wife and my kids.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear ‘being a loser in this system’



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the backchat that my errors at work that have caused financial hardship are proof that I am not able to survive in this system.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to others who I perceive as successful in this system as proof as my not being able to survive because others are ‘so much more successful’ than I am.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the emotional experience of fear of being proven ‘unfit’ to survive because of my financial distress.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as unfit to survive in this current economic system and therefore inferior.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the emotional experience of fear to the self-judgment that I am unfit to survive in this system.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that judging myself as unfit to survive and inferior. is not going to help my current situation and really matters not regardless of the actuality of this assessment. And therefore I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be consumed with fear and worry connected to self-judgments and backchat, rather than to just breathe and be here and to do what is practical to do to 'survive' in this system.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself judge myself as unfit to survive in this system in separation of all that is here, and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the realization that I have a specific per-programmed role in this system as it is now and whatever that role is, is not who I really am as life and is also something that I can transcend through self forgiveness and corrective application.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the realization that I am judging myself in my pre-programmed role within a matrix of mind-enslavement and that is diminishing me to merely a program, and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my programmed personalty within this system.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the realization that all exist as reflections of what we all accept and allow within ourselves, and within that we are all equal regardless of our current 'role' as 'loser' or 'winner' within this mind-based pre-programmed reality.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in judgments, backchats, internal conversations, opinions, both positive and negative of others and myself in separation of myself as all as one as equal.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that who I am as life is stable, constant, here and one and equal with all as me and within that there is no judgment, backchat, internal conversations – and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from all as one as equal through judgments both good and bad of myself and others because in doing that I am creating an artificial reality of separation wherein others, or myself, have characteristics that are not one and equal with all as who I am, but rather separate from me which is mental d-illusion.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to simply be here and breathe and do what is best for all and best for my personal situation in every breath without comparisons, or judgments, or backchats.



I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that my 'role' within the matrix of the mind-based reality that we exist in and as is not who I really am so long as I stand and breathe and walk breath-by breath in correct application doing what is most practical to ensure my 'survival'.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the realization that my negative self judgments may be proven in the real-world through both failures in business and comparisons to others, that I have grown up with, that are doing much better; and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my per-programmed nature as if that is who I really am.


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