Yes, others can physically hurt you, but emotionally, that is up
to you. I've been projecting a lot of blame recently believing that
others have hurt me or wronged me. Other's have wronged me by
breaking a “sacred” trust. I say “sacred” because this is
that trust that we are “supposed” to be able to have for one
another, especially when we're in committed relationships. But this
trust, is more like an ego charging system; wherein, we are just
expecting others to respect us and when that dose not happen, or seem
to happen, we blame and get angry and feel betrayed. When if fact,
we are all just a bunch of mind possessed humans who actaully have no
idea what trust and respect for one another and for life, actaully
is.
As it is lived now, trust is just based upon ideas and
expectations and ego / self-definitions that we are protecting
through this thing that we call trust. And then when the trust is
“broken” we feel “hurt” - like “you hurt me! You broke my
trust!” which is really like saying “you did not behave that way
that I expected you to behave based on ideas and beliefs that I hold
within and as myself, and now I am hurt which means that you OWE me,
because YOU caused MY pain.”
Right? Isn't this how it goes? Like, you broke my trust and thus
hurt me and now you must pay and make it up to me so that, so that
what?? So, that I can feel better about myself again (positive
energy returned!)! Right, so I feel bad now because you disrespected
me and broke my trust; and thus I am hurt and now you owe me so that
I can feel good about myself again. This the foundation of trust in
this mind-virtual reality that we experience ourselves in. This is
what trust is used for – it is used for the preservation of the ego
and our self-definitions and also it is used to get what we want and
preserve what we want so that we don't loose anything. In
other-words, trust is used for our own self interest of ego
preservation and ego magnification. Thus, trust is just another
abusive word as it is lived and experienced in our society right now.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe in trust or that trust exists or that trust is real.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that others can break my trust.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use
trust to try to control others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create
ideas, beliefs, and expectations within and as my mind based on
memories, TV shows, and ideas about life and reality that I grew up
with about how people should behave around me when in relations with
me; and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
my myself to believe that someone has broken my trust when and as I
do not see them living up to these expectations, ideas, and beliefs
about how they should behave. Within this point of “broken trust”,
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then
believe that my trust has been “broken”, that I have been
“disrespected” and then use this to justify reacting in blame and
anger towards the being whom “broke” my trust and thus “hurt”
me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that I can be emotionally “hurt”
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use
the point of being emotionally “hurt” as a means of
self-manipulation to justify acting out, becoming angry, taking
revenge, and acting in any type of emotion or physical action that
gives me the experience of feeling good again after feeling bad
because of how I reacted to the point of having someone “break”
my trust.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to turn the
point of trust into a polarity game, wherein when and as everyone
behaves as expected based on ideas and beliefs, I feel good /
respected; but when and as others behave “out of character” and
“violate” my boundaries, I feel disrespected and as if my trust
has been broken and then I feel negative / bad; and within this, I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then become
mind possessed with desire to act out or do something / say something
that will make the others feel less than so that I can feel good
again.
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