Day 33 – Some Self-Forgiveness on being frustrated with My Mother

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of ‘frustration’ when my mothered called to ask for my driver’s license information.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my mother as being ‘over-bearing’ because of past experiences where I perceived her to be so.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold a grudge against my mother because of past experiences where I felt ‘smothered’ and ‘controlled’ by my mother, and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to my mother in frustration because of this grudge that I have held against her.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my mother as doing things that are ‘superfluous’ and to within that judge her actions as ‘silly’ at times.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought that it is ok to act out in frustration towards my mother when she acts in ways that I have judged to be ‘superfluous’ and even ‘silly’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the emotion of frustration to the thought that ‘my mother is acting silly and therefore is bothering me and therefore I have to act in a way that she knows this and gets the point.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my mother’s actions and behaviors as justifications for me to go into the emotion of frustration towards her.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being controlled by my mother.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect fear to the thought of being controlled by my mother; and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being in control of myself when in the presence of my mother whom I perceive as over-bearing.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my mother as over-bearing, and thus I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I judge her as overbearing because of past experiences where I experienced myself as ‘under her control’ wherein I desire not to be in that situation again and then act-out in frustration as a way to keep myself ‘in control’ when dealing with my mother.