202 – Stress and Release

I have been staying up too late at night and then neglecting to wake up early enough to write effectively, partly due to stress and partly due to a developed apathy of recent.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘I am missing out on something if I don’t stay up a couple of extra hours at night to ‘unwind’ from the day.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need to ‘unwind from the day by doing something to distract me.’

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to simply just slow down and breathe when I come home from work, and also slow down and breathe while at work – to alleviate stress and the compounding of stress within and as me.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I create the condition and experience of stress within and as me / as my mind – that stress does not really exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the backchat ‘I am stressed-out from work and need to relax / I need a release.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself to follow my desires within the point of accepting and allowing myself to participate in backchat so that I can experience the energy of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am only living when I am living within and as the experience of the energy of my mind.

When and as I see myself going into / participating in the idea and belief that ‘I am stressed and need a relief’, I immediately stop and breathe.  I do not accept and allow myself to be directed by the energies of thoughts, feelings, emotions, ideas, beliefs – instead I remain here as the self-directive director of myself as the physical of life.

Thus, I commit myself to remain here and breathe and direct myself to follow through on my self commitments that I have already made to myself and all of existence as me – to change this system and myself to that what is best for all – by remaining here and expressing as the physical of no mind – which takes time, commitment, and consistency.

I commit myself to remain consistent.