Day 425 - Less Than

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to others and come up "less than".
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trap myself in the prison of my own mind through my fear of being "less than".
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I may be "less than" worthy of other's company, in their eyes.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others deserve less than me in the basic requirements for life and living on this planet such as food, shelter, money.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in-spite of everyone else by missing even one breath, and within this I forgive myself that I have thus manifested a world were billions are viewed and thus treated as "less than" life, including possibly even me, as a consequential outflow.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is justifiable that others have access to "less than" enough food / money / shelter to have a healthy body, and live a dignified life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself live in a world where most beings are considered "less than"worthy of living in dignified living conditions, and then I do nothing about it, through my continuing to live out the characters of my mind, thus taking no self-responsibility to stop creating a world of inequality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest my own fear of being "less than" by creating myself as systems, that are "less than" Life, through my own fear.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be "more than" others: more worthy, more funny, more rich, more successful, for likable, more intelligent, more talented  -- all so that I can feel worthy of Life and because of my starting point of fearing that I may be "less than".
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear, in that I fear that I am indeed "less than" and thus as a consequence now exist as "systems" of which these systems that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become are none other than my fear of being "less than" manifested, because systems are indeed "less than" Life because they are a derivative of Life, but not Life itself.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that Life is equal in all ways.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as "less then" and then react in fear to other's seeing me as "less than" when and as I am in their presence.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I always have to present myself in a certain manner in order to be acceptable in another's presence, otherwise I will be judged as "less than"
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand if I fear being judged by others as "less than" - that I have already judged myself as such.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge self as "less than" and then become nervous.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge self as "less than" and then try to be and appear to be "more than" in order to feel worthy.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that this pattern of fearing that I am "less than" and then competing to be "more than" has a consequential outflow of this manifested world of billions who are now living with "less than" enough food to eat.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my only option is to be be "less than" Life, OR equal to Life as Life, and that anything short of equality to Life results in a world of abuse where abuse is justified because some are "more than" while others are "less than" in the eyes of the systems which are de-mans running the world today.
I commit myself to equalize myself with Life through my dedication to stopping my mind as systems that I have allowed myself to be and become.
I commit myself to stop all comparison and judgment of others, and self, by forgiving it in the moment as it comes up, in real-time so long as it takes, until these patterns stop and my structural resonance has changed.
I commit myself to assist and support myself to stop all matters of comparison, competing, and judgment by reminding myself that these are patterns of the mind and systems that are less than Life, and that I am "here" as breath, where no judgment, comparison, and competition exists - and then apply self-forgiveness in the moment, to assist and support myself to remain here as breath in every moment, of Life, thus taking my stand as equal with Life.
I commit myself to show that if one stand equal with Life, as the breath of Life, that one can then help create a world of equality, where abuse does not exist - even if it takes decades.