Day 428 - The Persecution Character

Per-se-cu-tion

1. Hostility and ill-treatment, especially because of race or political or religious beliefs.

2. Persistent annoyance or harassment

Relevant synonyms: harassment, hounding, badgering, teasing, bullying

I could have named this article the scientific persecution character or the vaccine persecution character or the political beliefs persecution character because in all of these three areas, I have developed quite a vocabulary and thus seem to cant help but persecute those who do not espouse to my views in these matters, especially on-line.

I could of also named this writing, the Verbal Diarrhea Character, because in essence, all these other characters that I listed above could be included in the acts of verbal diarrhea, although verbal diarrhea covers a broader construct.

I could have called these characters the Bullying Character as well.

Nonetheless, I have realized long ago that none of these characters are supportive and that I must stop. However, I have not yet fully stopped my participation in these characters, although I have improved over time, if that counts for anything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the persecution character, especially on-line where I am “safely” behind a computer screen and do not have to face, in the flesh, my “opponent”, and persecute others for their beliefs, especially when it comes to science in general, vaccines, and political beliefs.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I have been indeed infected with a mind virus of verbal diarrhea that must be purged and corrected and is not supportive in my process or in others. Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that if I speak shit, I manifest shit, and then I experience that shit and that this virus is also contagious and others that I infect experience the same shit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bully, harass, badger, hound, tease, and persecute people on-line in regards to their political, religious, eating, or scientific beliefs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to develop a specific vocabulary in regards to defending specific topics, such as vaccines, and then wait for the opportune time to wield this vocabulary on an unwitting opponent with the intention of giving this opponent “a taste of their own medicine” and also with the intention of “standing up for what’s right” which is thus self-righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to self-righteously attack, harass, bully, and persecute another for their political, scientific, religious, or dietary opinion – all areas that I am fairly well versed and rehearsed at.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to derive a pleasure and thus positive energy experience when going into the persecution character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delude myself that I am standing up for “what is right” or that I am “making an effective change for the better in this world”, through my going into the Persecution Character, when in fact all that I am really doing is charging up my mind consciousness system and my opponents and all those who are reading my bullshit online- of which is just creating a bigger problem and sinking us all deeper into the pit of despair.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak or type words with no awareness to what affect my words have on myself or others in regards to the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to carelessly and negligently use my words wherein as a consequence I build up my mind consciousness system and others as well, of which supports all the abuse in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to support all abuse in this world with the words that I foolishly speak. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak as a fool – with no regard for the consequential outflow that my words may produce.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak any words that are of absolute blabbering nonsense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when and as I see or hear someone type or speak words defending, especially when I perceive it to be arrogantly, subjects that I have done a shitload of research in, such as vaccines, various scientific topics, dietary issues, religion, and politics – act as a “trigger” for me to go into the Persecution Character – wherein, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed these triggers to trigger me to go into and become possessed by this self created character and desire to self-righteously persecute and bully another being for their beliefs and positions – all justified within the delusional idea and belief that I am giving them a “taste of their own medicine” and standing up for what is "right".  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be consumed and possessed by the Persecution Character, instead of stopping my participation in it by bringing myself back to the breath.

When and as I see myself going into the Persecution Character or see potential triggers, as mentioned above, I stop and I breathe. I commit myself to remind myself that this is bullshit and that I am not doing anything whatsoever to aid and support Life, or create a world that is best for all by going into this character. I commit myself to, instead, stand in and as the breath, in oneness and equality, here as the physical and slow down and not communicate at all if I do not have something supportive to say or add.

I commit myself to test my communication by asking the question – does it stand in oneness and equality? Does what I am about to communicate support me and support others equal and one? Or does it influence me as the mind and others in and as the mind, supporting abuse and creating more problems in this world?

I commit myself to only speak words that are straight, direct, statements of who I am and what I stand for, as the living word, of Life, in oneness and equality – so that I can have an effectual outflow, in and as my words, of creating a world that is best for all, where I can support with my words, the manifestation of real equal and one solutions – instead of perpetuating problems with speaking blabbering nonsense.