Day 267 – Who I Was from the Beginning – Re-aligning my starting point, III

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that this existence and reality, exactly as it is now, is showing me the fully manifested consequences of what I have been, and am still, living now, as one who seeks the ultimate positive energy experience in-spite of everyone else and all of existence.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the experience of energy, of the mind, requires energy and that energy comes from the physical / substance.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that to live as energy and as the mind requires a constant source of energy which requires an incessant and regardless resourcing and transforming of the physical into energy regardless of the consequences.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have failed to connect the dots, in that this reality, which has an economic system that requires the destruction of the physical to create money is showing me what I am in-fact doing within and as myself in exact detail and fully manifested consequences.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pursue only the self-interest of existing within and as an energy experience in blatant dis-regard for all life as can be seen and evidenced by this physical reality as it is now in all its manifested, extensive, and brutal abuses to the beings here right now on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse myself and diminish my beingness as a consequence to living as the mind for the experience of energy.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that everything that I give of myself to the mind to live for me, is given away and thus my being-ness is diminished until I stand up and take back what I have given away of myself to energy and the mind, all for the ultimate experience of energy.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to consider changing my starting point to that what is best for all within the consideration that everything that I do, in-fact, affects all equally as one, which includes self which thus means that what is best for all is actually true self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that energy is a product of the physical and only serves to create a feeling of living / a mirror image of life, but is not actually living.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that when I remain here as a physical breathing being, requiring no experience of energy to be here, satisfied, happy, and entertained, that within this, I am already living here as my natural expression and taking a directive stand as the physical wherein I remain constant and stable as a physical being as; but that within my starting point of seeking only the ‘ultimate experience’ of energy, I am bowing down to energy and giving up my natural expression that is already whole and complete, for the experience of energy which is unstable and runs in cycles from positive to negative.  Thus, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my starting point of self-interest, where I only seek the ultimate experience of self in-spite of all others and regardless of the consequences that I inflict on others through the relentless conversion of the physical that is required to support my energetic experience of self, is actually self-destructive; wherein, even though things may seem ‘good’ now, I will wind up extinguishing myself, through my own self-interest where I am relentlessly diminishing my physicality / my being-ness to the point that I will eventually be self-consumed for the sake of energy creation to the point where I no longer have any ability to stand within any directive principle of self as a physical being and thus will become the subject to energy as my master and less than life– where the very thing that gave me pleasure becomes my master and my own destruction.

Day 266 – Who I Was from the Beginning – Re-aligning my starting point

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that this existence and reality, exactly as it exists right now in every minute detail, is a direct outflow of consequence showing me the consequences of existing within the starting point of self-interest – where I seek only the experience of self in spite of all others and have been doing so since the beginning of time; and thus, within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that this very existence is already showing me the fully manifested consequences of who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind and as energy as my starting point.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to consider that if my starting point were, ‘I as all as one as equal as substance, of life’, where I consider all as one as equal as who I am in every breath and only act from a starting point of what is best for all within the realization that I am in-fact all of existence as substance, of life, and there is nothing ‘out-there’ that is more than me here, because we are all substance in different form – that within this starting point, I would have manifested a completely different reality thus reflecting a different truth of self and starting point.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that we are all in-fact exactly the same, in that we are all the awareness of substance, which is simply here everywhere in existence, that has created energy as a consequence of our starting point of self-interest where we look outside of ourselves for the answers as if there is something more than who we are right here, and also we seek only our own experience in-spite of all others as if we are separate and not equal and one as substance of life, which then causes friction and then that friction creates energy as a consequence of which we eventually became enslaved to as the mind as consciousness.

Day 265 – Who I Was from the Beginning, I

After listening to the ‘History of the Universe’ as well as many of the Soul of Money Interviews on Eqafe Interviews:

 

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I have created everything that is here, indirectly and directly, through who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a direct result of my starting point.  Within that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a starting point of self-interest where I consider only myself, but yet look outside myself for all the ‘answers.’ 

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the simple point that this, as in all of existence as it exists right now, is I.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look outside of myself for all the answers to what, how, and why we are here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project blame on others, that represents points in this world as it exists right now, for what is here; when I see, realize, and understand that I am responsible for everything that is here as it exists right now.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that everything that exists here right now, all the abuses in their exact manifestation, are showing me the truth of who I really am and have allowed myself to be and become through my starting point of self interested and spite, where I seek my own self-interest in spite of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to conveniently forget how I in-fact, in-directly for the most part, created everything that is here as an expression / reflection of who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, within and as myself, over billions of years.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I have, in-fact, been here the whole time, recycled life after life as an interdimensional being at first, and then after my ‘enslavement’ into this physical body, life after life here on earth – with no memory of my previous lives.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the ultimate consequences of my living out my starting point of self-interest in spite of others and the effects / consequences of my actions on others – has brought me to this point here, where I have been captured and placed in a physical body and enslaved to a mind consciousness system by others beings who were doing the exact same thing as I am doing – where they enslaved me for their own self-interest in-spite of myself.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that acting in self-interest, where what is best for all is not considered, in spite of everyone else, creates energy as a consequence, both positive and negative energy.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that this energy that I created indirectly through my own self interest, not considering others and also looking outside of myself for all the ‘answers’, eventually overtime evolved into consciousness and then the mind which eventually trapped within and as the very energy that I created in separation of myself as the source of that energy.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to consider the point that everything that is here, in physical form, is of the same substance, ultimately.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that because everything is the same thing, which is substance, then everything is in fact equal, just in different forms and expressions. 

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my original starting point of self-expression was just a simple awareness of myself as substance, which is the ‘matter’ of everything that is physically here, both dimensionally and inter-dimensionally.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that this awareness preceded the mind, and that life thus was already here long before the mind.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I, as substance of life, naively interpreted what I experienced as something separate from me, and then wondered at it not realizing that it was me in a different form, as substance of life.  From here, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into an experience of wonder and awe at myself as substance and then from there, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be focused on my experience of myself in relationship to the other forms that I came across in my interdimensional existence, never realizing or considering that everything was me in the first place.   Through this ‘awe’, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to develop within and as myself the belief that there must be something more out there – never considering and never realizing that everything that exists is of the same substance of life and thus is actually me in a different form and expression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be operating from the same starting point now, in my physical body, mind-consciousness, enslavement – where I am still doing the same thing that I was doing way back in the beginning.

Day 264 – The Money System Is a Giant Mind, III – So, this is me.

So, if the money / monetary system is, and operates, just like my own mind, where money equals energy from the starting point that like energy, which is required to move self as the mind / as thoughts, feelings, emotions, characters, personalities, fears, etc., so too is money required for one to move self in this world.  No money, and one will starve to death, be homeless, lose relationships with others, and not be able to participate in this world, just like the mind would not be able to exist, move, and substantiate itself without energy. 

Money is energy.  Energy is money.  The mind is energy.  The mind does not move without energy.  This economic system does not move without money. 

Thus, who I am within and as my own mind is reflected within this economic system, as it exists right now on planet earth. 

Therefore, I can see who and what I am accepting and allowing myself to exist as, within my own mind, by simply looking at this world.  And by looking at this world, I can see that by participating in my mind, I am manifesting both this economic system as well as the consequences that this economic / monetary system brings – the consequences of war, famine, starvation, poverty, disease, illness, rejection, separation, loneliness, suicide, murder, rape, torture, loss, animal abuse, abuse of this planet, exploitation – this is who I am right now. 

Sure, there is a positive side too.  Energy comes in both negative and positive, together.  Energy contains the trait of polarity.  Thus, through participating in the energy of the mind, I am also manifesting all the ‘good’ in this world; however, the so-called ‘good’ is completely un-qualified when others suffer at the same time.  Thus, regardless of the so-called ‘good’, the reality of self is that one is no ‘better’ than what is actually here in this physical manifested reality; and what is here is a tremendous amount of suffering – which is the negative consequences of participating in the mind as reflected through, within and as the negative consequences of this current economic / monetary system on this planet right now. 

Thus, the negative is what you accept and allow in-spite of everyone else.  If one accepts and allows the negative because one has justified the negative through the positive that also exists, then one is deluding self because the reality is that both the positive and the negative exist together always; and therefore, if you accept one, you accept and allow the other.  If you accept and allow winners, you accept and allow losers.  If you accept and allow people to have more money than they need, then you accept and allow people to have less money than they need.  Until one decides to no longer accept and allow self to be directed and controlled by positive or negative energy of the mind, then one accepting and allowing and giving permission for all the ‘negative’ consequences here on planet earth to exist, regardless of the positive pictures that one wants to believe in / believe self to be. 

It’s a simple equation.  When I participate in energy / my mind, I give permission for this world to exist as it exists right now in every way, shape, and form of abuse, because this world as it exists now is moved by money which is equal to the energy that moves the mind.

Thus, every breath that I miss, every reaction that I allow, delays that point in time when abuse will end here on this planet. Thus, every point of suffering in this world reveals a point of abuse within self / within what I accept and allow within my own mind, especially that which I react to.  If I see abuse, and then react with thoughts like ‘oh fuck that!  That is so cruel!  Those people are ‘evil’, whoever is doing that abuse’ – that reaction reveals that I am doing the same thing, or something very similar within my own mind.  So, within that point let’s ask some questions:  Who are the abusers of animals? Answer: The Vegans.  Question: Who are the wagers of war?  Answer: The peace activists.  Question: Who are the real rapists? Answer: The prudes who hide their sexuality in morality and self-righteousness.  Question: Who are the devils on this planet?  Answer: The light workers and the religious.  Question: Who are the advocates of poverty and starvation?  Answer: The positive thinkers who use the law-of-attraction to draw money to themselves.  Question: Who are the gatekeepers of knowledge?  Answer:  The academics.  Question: Who are the champions of this system of in-equality?  Answer:  The chartable.  But, in fact, we are all doing all of it.

You see, each group of beings follows these paths in order to do ‘right’, bring ‘justice’, and end abuse, and are driven by their adverse reactions to abuses in this system - believing they can force a change in this outer world by trying to control others, not realizing the source of the abuses is their very participation in their own minds as energy which is equal to and one with money and this monetary system which facilitates all the abuses on this planet.  Thus, the ‘activists’ seek to hide from themselves by doing what is ‘right’ so that they can help create the illusion and picture of themselves as being someone who they are not, in fact. 

Do you want to end all the abuse on this planet that is made possible by this monetary system?  Then end the abuse that you are inflicting on your body / the earth, by and through the participation in the energy of your own mind.

Day 263 – The Money System Is a Giant Mind, II – “As Above, So Below”

So, continuing from the last post, the way our minds run is one and equal to the way our economic system runs.  The energy that fuels and charges up the mind to create experiences such as thoughts, feelings, and emotions is one and equal with money that fuels and powers this economic system to create the experience of having needs, wants, and desires fulfilled.  Without money, it is impossible to move yourself in this economic system, just like without energy, it is impossible to move yourself as the mind.  And just like this economic system that requires the resourcing, extraction, and conversion of the physical matter from this planet into a product that can be consumed in order to create money, the energy that fuels and charges the mind requires resourcing, extraction, and conversion of the substance of the physical body.  Thus, this economic system is a direct reflection of how we exist as the mind – This money system is a giant mind.

Thus, principle of ‘As within, so without’, or ‘As above, so below’, applies here.  You see, as it is within our minds, so too is our economic system and money system here on this planet’.   And, ‘as above, within the heaven of the imaginations and pictures within our minds, so to this economic system operates.’ So, why is this so? 

Is it possible that we are actually creating our external world as a reflection of who we are within and as our very minds?  Is it possible that this world is showing us who we are existing as – as a direct reflection of whom we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become?  Is it possible to look at this world, in its entirety, and say ‘this is who I am?’

The mind needs energy to survive.  We need money to survive.  The mind must create energy through harvesting the physical body.  Where do you think energy comes from?  Energy dissipates and then must be renewed.  Thus, a constant creation of energy is required to fuel and power the thoughts, feelings, emotions, constructs, imaginations, characters, and personalities of the mind.  Thus, if one does not participate in the mind, then the mind will not be able to resource the body for more energy and thus the mind will be energy starved over time and will eventually cease to exist. 

So, in order to sustain yourself as the mind, you must work and toil to create energy.  Just like, in order to sustain yourself in the physical existence, you must work and toil to create money.  Thus, if you do not work and toil to create energy, in other-words; if you do not accept and allow yourself to participate in thoughts, feelings, emotions, imaginations, fears, characters, and personalities which is the work and toil of the mind, then you will slowly starve the mind to death.  Just like, if you do not work and toil to create money in your account, then you will slowly starve yourself to death due to not having access to the system that supports all life on this planet – the monetary system. 

So, OMG!  Am I saying that if we all stop our minds, that because this external world is a reflection of our inner world, as within the principle ‘as within, so without’, that that means that we will have no money and then all starve do death!?  Heaven forbid!  LOL.  This would be true if we were indeed the mind!   But, my dear friends, we are not the mind!  Life goes on without the mind!  This can be proven within the point that we still exist and are still here when we are able to stop our minds as our thoughts, feelings, emotions, imaginations, fears, characters, and personalities. 

So, no, we will not starve to death if we stop our minds.  We will still be here and from here, without our minds, we will establish new economic / monetary systems that supports us that reflect who we are within our selves, as human physical beings of no mind.  And these new systems will be different and way less abusive – in fact, we may even be able to establish a system where no abuse exists at all - as the new system will reflect the reality of who we are without the mind.

And maybe we should do this.  I mean, have you paid attention to the extensive abuse that this economic / monetary system has inflicted upon this planet and the beings that live on this planet?  I mean, in order to create money, beings must suffer.  This is just a plain fact.  And this is so, because like the mind that resources the body to convert its physical substance into energy with absolutely no regard to the physical body beyond keeping it alive for future usage, this economic system has absolutely no regard for this planet beyond keeping it alive for future usage.  What I mean by ‘keeping it alive for future usage’ is that this economic system, like the mind, does strive to at least try to not kill its host – the body and the earth respectively.  I mean, any good parasite at least does its best to not kill the host, for self-serving purposes, of course.

So, reading between the lines here, another point comes up, and that is that we are the earth, in that we are of the same substance derived from the earth, and money is energy in that money is the product of our work and toil here on earth like energy is the product of our work and toil within and as the mind.  We, like the earth, are being used and abused to support our minds, which is one and equal with how this economic system treats the earth.  We are physical beings, of the same substance of the earth.  We die and go back to the earth where money and energy are irrelevant outside of the direct  consequences that it is inflicting about our physicals.  We, as physical beings of the same substance of the earth and all of existence, support the existence of energy and money through our participation in the mind of which is where we separate ourselves from what is here and instead enter the virtual reality of energy and money..

Day 262 – The Money System Is a Giant Mind

The money system is a giant mind.  Here’s how it works.  To support your mind, you convert the physicality of your physical body into energy to support thoughts, feelings, emotions, imaginations, characters, and personalities.  Energy is harvested from the human physical body of by relentlessly converting the physicality of your human physical body into energy, which has adverse consequences such as aging, pain, general breakdown, disease, and ultimately death.  The physical body must be replenished, and this is where eating comes in.  One must eat the proper nutrients and also a substantial amount of them in order to replenish the body at the same rate that it is being consumed and destroy / converted to energy by the mind to support its existence.

Now, to support the money system so that money is constantly flowing (like energy) in order to support each and every one of us, the physicality / the resources, found here on planet earth, must be converted to a product to be consumed in order to be sold in order to generate and create money to exist and then flow into your possession and in your control.  You see, in order to survive in this economic / money system as it is now, you must pay rent and pay bills in constant never ending cycles; and because you must pay-your-way through this economic system in endless repeating cycles requiring a constant renewing of money into your account, you / one must constantly be creating new money / having new money flow into one’s hands.  Thus, in order to always have money to pay bills to survive, one must be relentlessly creating and participating in activities to be creating new products and services to be sold and consumed.  This money must come no matter what the consequences to the physicality of this planet, or else you will not survive; and you cannot survive without money. 

Now, like you cannot survive on this planet without money, you as the mind cannot survive, as a mind, without energy.  Without a constant flow of energy you, as the mind, will cease to exist; just like, without a constant flow of money you will not be able to survive in this system.  And the constant renewing of money to survive in this world as well as the constant renewing of energy to survive as a mind – is primary; meaning, that it is of greater importance than the consequences upon the physical which provided these resources in the first place, because without money and without energy – you will not be able to survive in your current manifestation.  In other words, no matter the consequences, you must generate money to pay rent, buy food and clothes, just like you must generate energy to live your thoughts, feelings, emotions, imaginations, future projections, fears, hopes, dreams, characters, and personalities, all which constitute the mind, Get it?

So, the mind, is like a mine – an interdimensional machine designed to extract energy from the physical; and the more you participate in your mind / mine, by participating in thoughts, feelings, emotions, imaginations, characters, and personalities, the more energy you produce and the stronger the mind gets; just like as in the money system, the more that you labor to create products where the raw materials are extracted from the earth and then converted to become a product, the more money is created and circulated.  And just like a mine, the consequences of this resourcing is secondary to the production purposes.

And what are the consequences that this physical planet, Earth, suffers to support the current money system?  War, pollution, starvation, death.  So, like the money system, the host / the human physical body also suffers the same / or equivalent consequences in order to support the mind as energy. 

Let’s end the abuse.  Let’s stop our minds.  To be expanded upon.

Day 261 – Thoughts are like seeds

 

Thoughts are like seeds.  They start small and grow into trees.  A thought, in its fullest form becomes a personali-tree.  And like seeds, thoughts require something to make them grow into personali-trees.  Actual trees require water, the substance of life.  Peronali-trees require energy as thoughts, feelings, and emotions, the substance of artificial life.  Once established, the personali-tree, that started as a thought / an energy seed, will, like trees, become so well established / so well rooted, that it will change the very landscape of its environment and will prove almost impossible to up-root of the fertile soil of the mind / body relationship, because to rid yourself of the personali-tree, like real trees, one must be careful to pull-up all the roots, for fear that it will grow back one-day. 

So be care full what thoughts you accept and allow.  You may one-day find that those seemingly innocuous, slightly pleasurable, and very curious ‘thoughts’ were the very seeds that sowed your own destruction.   Oh yes, like seeds, thoughts seem so harmless.  But remember, there is a time for planting and there is a time for harvest – and the harvest is always a product of what you sow. 

So, remember the next time you accept and allow that fleeting thought that, like the serpent in the garden of evil, entices you, through your own desires for greatness, for pleasure, and to be more than who you are right here, to go into and taste that thought / that seed; because one day that thought, just like a seed, might grow into a personali-tree, and then the effort to remove it from your life may prove impossible – unlike a seed that can simply be destroyed by not planting it.