Day 266 – Who I Was from the Beginning – Re-aligning my starting point

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that this existence and reality, exactly as it exists right now in every minute detail, is a direct outflow of consequence showing me the consequences of existing within the starting point of self-interest – where I seek only the experience of self in spite of all others and have been doing so since the beginning of time; and thus, within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that this very existence is already showing me the fully manifested consequences of who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind and as energy as my starting point.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to consider that if my starting point were, ‘I as all as one as equal as substance, of life’, where I consider all as one as equal as who I am in every breath and only act from a starting point of what is best for all within the realization that I am in-fact all of existence as substance, of life, and there is nothing ‘out-there’ that is more than me here, because we are all substance in different form – that within this starting point, I would have manifested a completely different reality thus reflecting a different truth of self and starting point.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that we are all in-fact exactly the same, in that we are all the awareness of substance, which is simply here everywhere in existence, that has created energy as a consequence of our starting point of self-interest where we look outside of ourselves for the answers as if there is something more than who we are right here, and also we seek only our own experience in-spite of all others as if we are separate and not equal and one as substance of life, which then causes friction and then that friction creates energy as a consequence of which we eventually became enslaved to as the mind as consciousness.