I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
live for energy and to die for energy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
crucify myself, as a physical being and as my being-ness, where I give up my
directive principle, my self will, my natural state of being, all to live for
the artificial reality of the experience of energy. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to sacrifice myself as a physical being for both the creation of energy
and the dominion of energy of me and my will.
Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that when and as I live within and as the experience of
energy, I am in effect sacrificing who I am as my being-ness and as physical
being for the creation and perpetuation of energy. Thus, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that the existence of energy and the power of energy
depends on me - it is, in effect, where-ever I do not stand up and take
self-responsibility, to remain here as the breath and as the directive
principle of me wherein no energy or energetic experience is directing self,
for what is here within and as my physicality / my being-ness and all of
existence, equal and one, that then gets converted and thus diminished to
created energy to support an artificial existence of love and light. Within this, I forgive myself that I have
not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I am the one dying and
being sacrificed for my god, which is energy, to both exist and have directive
control over me. Within this, I forgive
myself that I have not allowed myself to consider that this is not a fair
exchange - wherein, I give up everything that I am as the physical, which is
equal and one with all of existence and dependent on nothing to exist, so that
I can experience myself as energy, as a personality, as a mind, as
consciousness - and I get nothing in return except to slowly extinguish myself
to a point where I practically no longer exist because I have accepted and
allowed myself to be diminished / sacrificed / crucified for the sake of and
creation of energy, to the extent that I have practically no self-will as a
physical being and can no longer tell the difference between the illusion
created through energy and the reality of what is here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
be diminished to such an extent as a consequence of my sacrificing myself for
the creation and authority of energy that I no longer can easily tell the
difference between what is the real me that exists here as a physical being /
as my being-ness, and the artificial me of thoughts, feelings, emotions,
characters, patterns, reactions, fears, and personalities that constitute the
mind; which is energy and an energy creation and also has directive power of me
and who I am as the physical so long as I am lost in the illusion created by
energy of the mirror of self.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that the crucifixion of Christ on the cross for 'god'
is one and equal to the crucifixion of self and also this entire planet with
all the beings on it suffering the hardships of this economic system for the
creation of energy and also money, which is the physically manifested form of
energy. Within this, I forgive myself
that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the worship
of 'god' and the belief of Jesus' sacrifice is one and equal with the physical
reality here on earth where we are all sacrificing our lives as physical beings
for the life and for the sake of energy and then money - thus I forgive myself
that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that through
religion, mankind actually worships and is enslaved to energy, which is the
mind and equal to money and equal to god.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that there are two gods in existence. One god, is energy - this god demands a
self-sacrifice to both support its existence and give it power and control over
self; and the other god, is the physical AKA substance, which is the substance
of which all things are made of and exists before energy and supports the
creation of energy. Within this, I
forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand
that the creation of energy and thus god, which is energy and equal to and one
with the god of religion, is dependent on the physical to be converted,
transformed, and thus sacrificed for this 'god' to exist and thus invalidates
this god as the true 'god' of existence because its existence is dependent on
the willingness participation of the physical / of substance / of physical
beings. Thus, I forgive myself that I
have never allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the 'god' of
religion which is equal to and one with energy and money and the mind, is not a
true god as per the definition of 'god' within the point that it's very
existence and manifestation is dependent on the physical and thus this 'god' is
actually the subject of the physical which contradicts the very definition of
'god' and what god is supposed to be.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that I, as the awareness of the physical, have created
this very existence, indirectly - or in other-words - almost by accident as an
outflow of the consequences of my starting point of living for the experience
of energy, which is self-interest, with no regard for the outflow of
consequences to the rest of this physical existence that living for the
experience of energy causes. Within
this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and
understand that the true 'god' of existence is outflow of consequence - in
that, for every action, there is a reaction and an outflow of consequence; and
thus since living for the experience of energy, for 'god', requires and demands
a sacrifice of the physical - then that means that someone in this existence
must suffer for the creation of energy that is required to support my desire to
live for energy. And thus, within this
point of living for energy and not considering the consequences to all of
existence that this creates, I am taking advantage of others for my own energetic
experience and thus living for energy is of self-interest, not best for all,
and requires the sacrifice of self and / or others to exist.
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