I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that the experience of energy, of the mind, requires
energy and that energy comes from the physical / substance. Within this, I forgive myself that I have
not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that to live as energy and
as the mind requires a constant source of energy which requires an incessant
and regardless resourcing and transforming of the physical into energy
regardless of the consequences. Within
this, I forgive myself that I have failed to connect the dots, in that this
reality, which has an economic system that requires the destruction of the
physical to create money is showing me what I am in-fact doing within and as
myself in exact detail and fully manifested consequences. Within this, I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to pursue only the self-interest of existing within
and as an energy experience in blatant dis-regard for all life as can be seen
and evidenced by this physical reality as it is now in all its manifested,
extensive, and brutal abuses to the beings here right now on earth.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
abuse myself and diminish my beingness as a consequence to living as the mind
for the experience of energy. Within
this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and
understand that everything that I give of myself to the mind to live for me, is
given away and thus my being-ness is diminished until I stand up and take back
what I have given away of myself to energy and the mind, all for the ultimate
experience of energy.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to consider
changing my starting point to that what is best for all within the
consideration that everything that I do, in-fact, affects all equally as one,
which includes self which thus means that what is best for all is actually true
self-interest.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that energy is a product of the physical and only
serves to create a feeling of living / a mirror image of life, but is not
actually living. Within this, I forgive
myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that when
I remain here as a physical breathing being, requiring no experience of energy
to be here, satisfied, happy, and entertained, that within this, I am already
living here as my natural expression and taking a directive stand as the
physical wherein I remain constant and stable as a physical being as; but that
within my starting point of seeking only the ‘ultimate experience’ of energy, I
am bowing down to energy and giving up my natural expression that is already
whole and complete, for the experience of energy which is unstable and runs in
cycles from positive to negative. Thus,
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand
that my starting point of self-interest, where I only seek the ultimate
experience of self in-spite of all others and regardless of the consequences
that I inflict on others through the relentless conversion of the physical that
is required to support my energetic experience of self, is actually
self-destructive; wherein, even though things may seem ‘good’ now, I will wind
up extinguishing myself, through my own self-interest where I am relentlessly
diminishing my physicality / my being-ness to the point that I will eventually
be self-consumed for the sake of energy creation to the point where I no longer
have any ability to stand within any directive principle of self as a physical
being and thus will become the subject to energy as my master and less than
life– where the very thing that gave me pleasure becomes my master and my own
destruction.
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