"Then after a
while, it started to get old, yet, I was still young and so it was
OK. Now, its like, WTF?! When am I going to get my f** shit
together?!? It's been like 24 years that I have been an “adult”
now, by now I should be getting it together! It's not like I have
not been trying! What's wrong with me? I work hard, I have the gift
to gab / get along with most people, I am attractive (enough, as in
there is nothing wrong with my physical appearance that should hold
me back in any way), I don't have any physical disabilities, I dress
appropriate, I get up early, I am willing to work, I am intelligent
(like as in being attractive – intelligent enough – as in when I
compare myself to others, I don't see any thing to be concerned
about), I apply myself – YET – to this day, I am not able to make
enough money to cover what I need. And its really getting old.”
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in back chat
in my mind such as “what's wrong with me? I should be making more
money by now! When am I going to get my shit together?”
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as inferior
to others who are making more money than I am at this age of my life.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and project that
others are judging me as a loser, as incompetent, as a fool, as
inferior because I am not making enough money to survive at this age
in my life, when in fact it is me that is judging myself this way
based upon artificial expectations that I should be doing better than
I am now and also based upon comparisons to the pictures that others
present of themselves as successful in this system.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am
inherently flawed / unable to survive in this system and that there
is nothing that I can do about it to change and that this thus proven
because my of lack of ability to financially support myself after 24
years of adulthood.
I forgive myself
that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that
my pre-programmed mind design has been programmed to exist within and
as poverty up until now, at least, and that within this I have
neuropathways that are formed within and as my mind in a structural
formation that guarantees that I will not achieve much financially,
but that it is up to me to push in and reprogram / change my
neuropathways tot the design and formation and structure that
accommodates success and unconscious competency.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the
point of unconscious incompetency within regards to earning money and
creating wealth. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that this
unconscious incompetency is a bi-product of me upbringing, education,
and downloaded personalities – but that I can change this into
unconscious competency through pressing in and standing as change and
changing my mind into and as the design of conscious competency and
success and winning within and as this system.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the
point of negative energy for most of my life wherein I have the
tenancy to believe the worst about myself, judge myself negatively,
and then react in fear and worry towards my own personal negative
self judgments and backchat. I forgive myself that I have not
allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that this has created
and drawn negative energy to me and thus negative circumstances
wherein I am essentially creating my own fears. Within this, I
forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and
understand that I am the creator of my own personal bubble existence
as within and as my postilion in the matrix as well as this
existential reality as whole in every way.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the
negative.
I forgive myself
that I have neglected to use the LOA for my own personal benefit
within and as this system as it it designed now not realizing that
the LOA (Law of Attraction) is actually what is required to be
successful in this system and can be used as a tool for the
betterment of all – yet to ignore the LOA and pretend that it is
just system programming (which it is), will only leave me in my
current position as financially poor and thus ineffective within this
system.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame this system for my
position within and as the matrix, yet not realizing that although I
am here within and as my position by design, it is I who give
permission to this in the first place through my unconscious and
unaware participation within and as it and acceptance of it as me as
who I am. I forgive myself that although blame creates a point
feeling good about my negative position within and as the matrix,
that blame solves nothing and actually prevents me from making a
difference and changing and taking responsibility.
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