Day 289 - Self Trust, IV

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that self trust is developed over time in every here breath, where I remain here and breathe and stand as my own support as the physical no matter what consequences I face.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, in that quantum moment when I can decide to stand and breathe or react, that I go into self-doubt that breathing will not be 'enough' to see me through that what I face.  Within that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my self-trust in my reactions and thus my mind in that quantum moment where I decide to accept and allow myself to react instead of breathe, slow down, and direct.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my trust in my reactions and energy and thus my mind.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that reacting in fear, worry, and anxiety is completely un-necessary to aid and support me and will only work to abuse my physical body through using it as a battery to energize the mind reactions, which is actually a form of self-punishment.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to stand as self-trust, where I trust myself to be able to find the best possible solutions to what I face and protect me from what I face without any reactions or mind interference whatsoever - where I trust myself as my being ness, as the breath, and as the physical to be able to consider, move, and direct whatever is necessary to bring the most favorable resolution to what I face.

When and as I see myself in a fear, worry, stress, or anxiety reaction, and have the self presence to decide to either stop this reaction and breathe or accept and allow this reaction to embody, direct, and control me, I choose to breathe - I commit myself to stand up in that moment and take my directive power back by snapping myself out of this mind possession through saying "no, I breathe'; and remind myself that I am here to stand as self trust and as my own support through within and as the breath where I do not react and do not accept and allow myself to place my self trust in the coping mechanisms of worry, fear, and anxiety.  I commit myself to speak self forgiveness out loud if the social setting permits to help direct and release the fear, anxiety, and worry energy.  I commit myself to speak outloud in a calm, steady, slightly deep, and yet directive voice so as to use the sound resonance of my voice to help break-up and diffuse the energy of fear, worry, and anxiety.  I commit myself to remind myself that nothing of these reactions will help me in any way whatsoever.  I commit myself to use the practical tool of projection, to map out the worst possible scenarios and then find solutions and breathe through them so as to remain clear and un-reactive while walking all the worst case scenarios, no matter how potentially adverse the reality may actually be.  I commit myself to remind myself that when I stand as self trust, that means that I trust myself to be able to stand here and breathe and find the best possible solutions to what I face free of any mind energy to of which is completely unnecessary to aid and support me.