I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that the law of attraction and thinking positive is
based upon drawing resources and positive experiences to self regardless of the
consequences to others and completely irrespective of others. Within this, I forgive myself that I have
not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that resources are indeed
limited and thus when I draw resources to myself, through the law of
attraction, that these resources are coming form others regardless of whether
they have enough for themselves and regardless of any adverse consequences they
may face as a result of having resources taken from them.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that positive thinking is based on a polarity equation,
where I have judged myself or my circumstances as 'negative' and then within
that, created the desire, within and as myself, to experience myself as
'positive' as the solution. Within
this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and
understand positive and negative to do not actually exist in the physical
reality of what is here and that my experience of myself as positive or
negative is completely my own creation - and within that I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to fuck with myself through judging my life,
my and my circumstances as positive or negative.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
connect fear to winding up on the streets, broke and poor.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
connect fear to being seen as a 'looser' by others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
define myself through money, wherein I have defined myself as a 'looser'
compared to anyone who makes more money than me; and I have defined myself as a
'winner' only when and as I am making tons of money, of which has never
happened.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
compete with others in order to make the most money and have the best life just
so that I can feel good about myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
place my self-worth within and as the amount of money and thus success that I
have; wherein the more money I make, the more self-worth I have. Within this, I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to connect my confidence to my misplaced self
worth, wherein, the more money that I have equals more self worth which equals
more self-confidence. Thus, I forgive
myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need more money in
order to have more confidence and self-worth.
Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that because I have placed my self-worth and my self
confidence in the amount of money that I can make compared to others, that this
puts my in the eternal mind-fuck of always trying to attain something so that I
can be proven valuable and 'worthy', when in fact, I have totally fucked with
myself because my value is already here, within who I am as the physical or
life - where I am equal with all as me.
Thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to try to attain my self-worth through making money through the 'law of
attraction' wherein through this, I am completely self-consumed with only the
self-interest of balancing the polarity equation that I created in my own mind
in separation from what is here with complete disregard for the adverse affects
to others that the law of attraction causes.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to consider
that for their to be winners, there must be losers; within this I have not
allowed myself to consider that for there to be big winners, such as super
wealthy people, there must be big losers and lot's of them to support the big
winners, such as billions of people starving in Africa, because their are only
so much resources available.
I forgive myself that I have no allowed myself to consider
that resources are indeed limited, and thus they must come from somewhere and
that they just don't magically appear in my possession with no consequences to
others.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to consider that if we had a system that was best for all, where all life was
treated with dignity within the point that all life at equal access to
resources and no one was abused for the benefit of another, that within this,
no one would ever have any need for the law of attraction. Within this, I forgive myself that I have
not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the law of attraction
is nothing more than an over-done survival mechanism within the current system
of survival of the fittest and winner takes all.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that the law of attraction is necessary for survival, when in fact, all
that is necessary is disciplined self movement to always be responsible to
participate in the work force as effectively as possible within the current
system as it is through practically moving self to do what is demanded of self
with no energies, positive or negative moving self.
I commit myself to breathe and direct myself here as the
physical and as the breath to do what is practical and best for all to ensure
my survival and success within this economic system as it is now free of any
positive or negative energies.
When and as I see myself going into the judgment and
comparison characters, where I compare myself to others and their 'success' and
then judge myself as less than and unworthy, I stop and I breathe; I do not
accept and allow judgment and comparison to exist within and as me. Instead, I remind myself that everyone and
everything that is here is really me and a reflection of what I am really
living within and as myself. Thus, I
commit myself to seek understanding / self-understanding to all that I react
to; and through this self-understanding, release myself from the reactions of
fear, anxiety, and feeling less worthy than others. And I definitely commit myself to no longer over-compensate for
my self-created inferiorities through participating in the 'magical' thinking
of positive thinking and the law of attraction, but instead commit myself to
face my inferiorities so as to release them from me altogether so that I can
contribute to society with all that I have as life and as the physical where I
move within the principle of what is best for all.
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