Day 377– Self Forgiveness regarding person X, Part IV, on person "X"

When and as I see myself back-chatting about person X and how arrogant, pushy, inconsiderate, and what an asshole person X is, I stop and I breathe.  I do not accept and allow myself to back-chat about person X because I see, realize, and understand that by doing so I am creating dimensions / characters within and as my mind in relation to person X, that I will eventually have to face and stop thus making my process for arduous and longer, as well as layering memories within and as my mind / physical of these back-chats that are attached to emotional bodies that contain the emotions that were / are fueling and also created by the back-chatting, such as anger, frustration, blame, and fear – wherein, through this, I am setting myself up for future emotional reactions in the future, in relation to person X and my back-chat towards person X, when these memories are triggered.  Thus, I commit myself to stop back-chatting about and towards person X and all others, by reminding myself of this and then clearing my mind through stopping and then taking a deep breath and then realigning myself to within and as the breath / my breathing and my physical / being physically here where I pay attention to my body and movements in real time as the physical.

 

When and as I see myself going into blame, anger, frustration towards person X, or anyone else, I stop and I breathe.  I do not accept and allow myself to react like this because I see, realize, and understand that I am projecting my own bullshit onto others so that I do not have to look at myself.  I see, realize, and understand that person X, in this case, violated my own personal belief system and expectations of how he should act and be and that within this I reacted in anger, blame, and frustration.  I see, realize, and understand that person X is just acting out his pre-programming, just like me, and that his program is causing my program to react – within this, I see, realize, and understand that if I had just remained here in and as the breath wherein I am aligned within and as the breath and the physical, that I would not have reacted, not been angry or upset at his behavior, and would not have blamed him for anything because all of this is just mental bullshit that accomplishes nothing but to hide myself from who I am accepting and allowing myself to be and exist as.  Within and as the breath and the physical as my alignment I would simply breathe through person Xs pre-programmed expression and then simply moved myself to do and direct the situation to the most practical and mutually beneficial solution with no emotional reactions required.  Thus, I commit myself to slow down and breathe through person Xs pre-programmed rants and expressions in the future wherein I ground myself here in and as the breath and the physical through breathing and not participating in any back-chat or emotional reactions that come up whatsoever, and then self-forgiving those that do get through in that moment, or the earliest moment possible to move with self forgiveness.