I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to be worried that others are thinking of me
as “stupid, or boring, or not humorous” while in conversation with them thus
distracting me from being here and truly listening.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as “stupid, boring, or weird”
while in conversation with others and thus react to these judgments by becoming
withdrawn and reticent.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to have a constant dialogue going on within
and as my mind, while talking to others and especially to certain types of
beings, where I am judging what I am saying or about to say and then reacting
to those judgments with fear and worry to a point where I become distracted and
unable to communicate effectively.
Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
identify with and thus believe that this back chat is me and is serving some
form of beneficial purpose for me or protecting me from harm and then within
this identification with this back chat wherein I believe, automatically, that
it is me and has a positive purpose to protect, I then start reacting to it and
thus becoming mind possessed with fears, worries, concerns, projections about
what I am going to say and how to say it and if the other person will like it
or not – all while in conversation with others thus distracting me and making
my communication less effective.
I forgive myself that I
have not realized and understand that I am the source of these negative self
judgments and that they are actually not coming from those whom I fear they are
coming from, but are actually originating within and as me / my mind.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear to the idea that I may be
being perceived as “stupid, boring, or weird” by others. Within this, I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to have judged myself as “stupid, boring, and
weird.”
I forgive myself that have
accepted and allowed myself to be distracted by my own mind running its
pre-programmed back-chats that I either inherited or created wherein I forget
these back chats are just programs running in my mind and not actually
physically real nor are they necessary.
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