Person X, pulled one of
his normal stunts, where he observed me in a business setting with some
customers, and then made a snap judgment / assessment of what is going on
wherein he thought he knew everything about everyone and judged the situation
to be one that he needs to intervene in, in order to save us from ourselves; of
which he did, and then this lead to a chain reaction of events that ultimately
lead to me customers hating me, from what I can tell. As unlikely as that sounds, this is actually what happened, in
essence.
How is this possible? Well, you see, through person X’s meddling
in my business transaction, he, in-effect, derailed the process / track that I
was on with the customers that I was working with. The track that I was on, was to have my current customers taken
care of / completed by the time, or shortly after, my next appointment was set. But, when person X, decided to bestow upon
us his “mighty wisdom” – of which he did so by undermining my credibility to my
customers by making the statement to them, and I quote: “You are in deep water
Josh” - in reference to my presentation that I was in the midst of making – of
which, naturally and expectedly so, triggered my customers to want to know why
“I am in this so-called deep water” that person X “claimed” that I was in
(which I was definitely NOT in), and through their “curiosity” to know what
this “deep water” was all about, they changed their focus from me to person X
wherein he then basically took over the entire situation and lead them down a
completely different path for the next 30 minutes.
Then my next appointment
showed up, ready to go, and my current customers were lost in “lala land” with
person X and were definitely, now, no where near being wrapped-up, as I had
planned, because person X had them off in a completely different
direction. Now, this different
direction was to no avail, because I had already gone down that path 2 weeks
ago with these customers and already knew the result of which would be that of
non-interest from these customers. But
person X did not bother to ask me this in the first place, of which if he did
so, he could have saved everyone a lot of time by just simply butting out.
Nonetheless, when my next
appointment showed up, I now was in a situation wherein I had 2 unresolved
customers at the same time of which both need at least 30 minutes of complete
attention because my original customers, instead of being close to wrapped up
as I had planned, were no where near being wrapped up because person X, in his
infinite wisdom (LOL), decided to undermine me with the “deep water” comment in
order to wedge his way into my presentation of which just confused the customer
more and extended the time that they needed, to have it now interfere with my
next appointment.
Then, feeling pressured to
make everyone “happy”, I moved my original customer’s purse from the seat that
she was sitting in, before person X butt-in, in order make a seat for my next
customer who had her arms full of books and papers and was staring at the
otherwise empty seat next to my desk.
My original customer saw that I moved her purse and took this to mean
that I was kicking her out, of which I was absolutely NOT; and she took this
personally and then stormed out of out showroom completely angry at me, and
then she went to her builder and told him of my “behavior” and said she wants
to also cancel her other order with me that she made last week. Now, this builder thinks I am some form of
an ass and this customer hates me. Now,
for the record, I was in no way kicking my original customer out and was only
trying to be accommodating to my new one.
But, with this awkward situation that person X created by pushing his
way into my sales presentation thereby derailing my sales flow – this created a
situation where I had 2 customers at once who each now need total attention and
neither could be wrapped quickly and within this I felt stressed and pressured
to make everyone happy and then made a social blunder that lead to a total
disaster. Then person X had the gall to blame me. That fucker.
Person X has behaved in a
similar manner before, many times actually, just never leading to such a
disaster as this. So, therefore, I have
accumulated memories and backchats towards person X that have triggered,
through this event, emotional reactions, within and as me, such as hatred
towards X, blame, anger, frustration, worry, self-pity, fear, and the list goes
on in the emotional fuckedness that has come up triggered by this event,
directed mainly at person X.
Yes, it is true, if person
X would have just fucked off – meaning: “mind his own business” and stayed out
of mine – then this event would NOT have happened. It was the context of this event that lead to me making a bad
social decision about how to make everyone “happy”. This is not to justify my nervousness, feeling pressured, feeling
stressed, etc. – no not at all. Surely,
if I had a cool head, and was clear and breathing, I could have navigated this
situation to have a more than likely positive outcome. BUT, this situation should not have occurred
in the first place. Person X, through
his arrogance and superiority / inferiority complex, and his pushy-ness created
a chaotic situation of which was unplanned and within that I stumbled. Person X did this for no reason. There was no reason that this should have
happened. Person X behaves in this
manner quite often and this makes it more difficult for me to get over.
So, I am going to have to
get over this that is why I am writing this here. I am, over the next writings, going to be releasing myself from
many of these points here.
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