Day 372 - Fear of loss and Desire for the Ultimate Positive Energy Experience, IV

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live for the ultimate energy experience with complete disregard its consequences to the physical / my physical body / all the beings suffering on this planet right now as an outflow of consequences.

 

I commit myself to no longer be directed by desire and / or fear / fear of loss because I see, realize, and understand that I am not energy and that energy is what has a beginning and an end, where the end is feared.  But rather, I see, realize, and understand that I am here as the physical of which is simply here, whole, complete, all at once right here in its natural state / my natural state – wherein I am in need of nothing in which there is nothing to fear because it is impossible to loose myself when I am already here as everything.  I see, realize, and understand that desire is manifest within the context of fear of loss, and thus desire, then attraction, the love / sex, is all a game that I have been playing since the beginning of time in order to secure my existence within and as energy / positive energy.  I see, realize, and understand that energy, unlike substance / the physical, is always moving from positive to neutral to negative and that this movement to the negative generates / creates my fear of loss wherein as the negative I fear loosing the positive – and that within this, I see, realize, and understand that I have manifested desire as tool used to keep my in the positive energy experience forever and always.  Within this, I see, realize, and understand that by the nature of energy in that it is always moving from positive to neutral to negative that within this very point, I will always be trapped in endless cycles of desire and fear of loss and that I will never manifest an eternal positive energy experience because that defies the very nature of energy itself and thus is an illusion that I have created of eternal blissness that I chase after like a carrot on a stick.  I see, realize, and understand that even when I manifest / experience my desires, that they will always fade into the negative and thus I cannot really live as the eternal positive experience and thus will always have fear of loss as me so long as I exist within and as desire.  I see, realize, and understand that through the chasing of positive energy, that I am actually creating energy of which is derived from the physical / substance of which has adverse consequences to the physical of which is demonstrated  / being lived in this very world right now where most suffer / the planet is dying and only a small minority are actually able to experience themselves in the positive of which is the manifested consequence of living for and as energy.  I thus commit myself to take my stand as the physical, wherein I am already whole and complete within the point of HERE, wherein I am already HERE, as the physical as all as one as who I really am, HERE, where there is no time, and no energy requirement.  I commit myself to show how time is a function of energy, where there is a beginning and an end and where time is the function of the movement from positive energy to negative and then back to positive through relationships that are formed to move as energy.  I commit myself to no longer exist within and as desire because I see, realize, and understand that all my very desires are all for one thing – to live within and as an eternal point of the ultimate positive energy experience.  Thus, I commit myself to end my existence within and as desire and fear of loss through a total self commitment to change my very nature from within and as energy to the source of energy that is always equal and one and constant, HERE – and that is substance / the physical.  I commit myself to breathe, slow down, and examine all my personalities, desires, fears, and characters to see where fear of loss and desire is generating / creating them so that I can stop participant within and as energy, and realign myself to live here, as the physical of which is eternal, never ending, equal and one, and best for all, and will eventually lead to a world that is best for all as the manifested reward / result of living here as the physical and ending the hamster wheel of desire and fear of loss.