Day 371 - Fear of loss and Desire for the Ultimate Positive Energy Experience, III

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the very nature of the existence of desire is of the starting point of fear / fear of loss / fear of existing in and as the negative which is equal to and one with fearing for one’s very own survival.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest this very existence of winners and loser’s competing for money which is equal to and one with positive energy thus we are all as we were in the beginning as manifested singularities competing for positive energy all coming from / driven by and through a starting point of fear / fear of loss / fear of existing within and as the negative / negative energy / negative energy experience.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that sex as the ultimate positive energy experience is one and equal with making lots of money as they both guarantee one’s survival: sex as the mind as energy, and money as the manifested physical representation of sex as energy as survival in this economic system:

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that desire is in fact the adrenalized /quantified / accumulated fear / fear of loss experience of and as and within the manifested singularities / male / female to ensure and secure one’s own survival as energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that desire is me / is natural / is of the physical.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my very manifested desires for sex / money / to win / the be the best / to have more and more / to be recognized / to be spiritual are all here /existent within and as me for the sole purpose of motivating me / driving me to have / experience positive energy / the ultimate positive energy experience and thus within that secure / ensure my very existence as energy / as an energy being.