Day 366 – Self-Conscious, II

When and as I see myself accessing the self-conscious character, wherein I negatively judge and analyze what I have said or what I am saying, and then go into fear reactions and then worry and even nervousness to what I perceive and project others to be seeing / judging me as – and within this I go into inferiority towards others as if I am not worthy of talking or expressing because I have judged what I say and am saying as bad / wrong / stupid / inappropriate / boring --- I stop and I breathe.  I do not accept and allow this character to exist within and as me because I see, realize, and understand that this character is a figment of my imagination / is of my mind / is of energy / is a mind possession and thus limits my self-expression as who I am as the physical of which is unlimited and equal and one with all that is here as me including the very people that I am talking to when accessing self-consciousness.  I see, realize, and understand that this character does not actually exist in fact and is completely imaginary and of my mind in separation from what is actually real.  I see, realize, and understand that this character does not actually assist me to protect from the negative judgments of others.  I see, realize, and understand that this character is really about me and how I see myself and then I am projecting this onto others as if the source of these negative self judgments is coming from outside of me / is not of me.  Thus, I commit myself to stop and delete this self-conscious backchat when and as I see it come up.  I commit myself to direct my awareness to my breathing and to being completely here within and as my physical body.  I direct myself to breathe in the fear, anxiety, nervousness energies that are created as a consequence of accessing the self-conscious character into my chest area where I can disconnect these energies from my solar plexus, where they originate, and then move them around in my chest area and then ground them back into my physical body through the out-breath.  I direct myself to remind myself that I am of the physical and that everything that is here is physical and thus I am actually equal and one with all as me and thus there is nothing to fear or be self-conscious about, in reality.  I direct myself to remind myself that I am merely projecting my own self judgments onto others as if these are coming from them, when they are coming from me.  I direct myself to remind myself that the best thing that I can do for all as me as one and equal with me is to express myself as freely as possible of no energy – just pure self expression here in every moment of breath.  Thus, I direct myself to breathe, ground the energies, and within stabilize myself while in conversation with others so that I can align myself within and as the physical where I can direct myself to express myself in the moment as who I am of the physical, of which is best for all and is a true self expression of who I really am in each and every breath.