Day 411 -- Stopping back chat towards person named CWMS

I have back-chat towards CWMS.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, in and as my back-chat, to judge CWMS negatively and as ignorant, and religious and then react with annoyance in his presence or just thinking, especially when he speaks religiously or prays, and then change my tone of voice, my posture as more of a "keep your distance / I am superior" posture when in his presence.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then suppress this by keeping to myself instead of releasing it through self honesty and self forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to also judge CWMS negatively and create the opinoin and idea within and as me that he is "silly or stupid", because, he always addresses me with a hand shake or hug no matter what the situation, even when it seems / judged as inappropriate to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and hold the opinion within and as myself, through judgment, that CWMS is silly and stupid because I see his behavior as hyper, superfluous, silly, and invasive.

Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that these judgments, reactions, opinions is my secret mind.  Thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in my secret mind where I hold opinions and judgments of others in secret.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the character of resistance and superiority when XWMS's presence, where I speaking more slowly and with softer tones and changing my body posture to be not so inviting and show a form of superiority towards him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the character of super-hero-ity / superiority, where I judge another as in-fear-and-horror and then play the super-hero in and as superiority.  Thus I forgive myself to particvipate in this polarity game where I create energy and thus exist in 3 dimensions as the mind where I mine my end, instead of standing here as the breath, equal and one with others as me where no judgments are accepted and allowed.

I commit myself to stand as Life, as one and equal, with CWMS and others equally, and immediately stop backchat in one breath and do SF on it to release and ground it back to the  physical.