I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, go into the procrastination character, and say within and as myself where I think "I can do that later" or "I don't feel like it now" and react in fear to the idea belief and perception that I may be missing out on something other than getting the task done.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trap myself in the "now" of consciousness of which is the past / living in the past when and as I procrastinate / put a task off for a later time that can be done now.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that when I "procrastinate" I am existing in the past which connects me to the "now" of the unified consciousness field, instead of being here as breath and acting in the moment, clear stable, constant, and here - doing what it is that needs to be done, in real time - so that I am always thus living in the moment, here, moving to the next thing that needs to be done.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself, to see, realize, and understand that what heppens when I procrastinate habitually, as the development of me as procrastination, is that a relationship formation is designed within and as my mind of which infuses into and as my physical body which then designs the experience and feeling of laziness of which I then become addicted to creating me as lazy through habitual procrastination.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that laziness is a feeling that is created and developed by my participation and relationship with procrastination - thus I create myself as addicted to the energetic experience / feeling of laziness and as lazy through habitual procrastination.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted / create an addition to being lazing and the energetic feeling of being lazy.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the consequential outflow of procrastination is laziness that I then become addicted to as like a junkie.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts like / in the though "I'll do that later / I dont feel like it / I will miss out on something" and then even go into the mind fuck that there is some other thing out there to do that will bring me happiness and satisfaction and thus procrastinate - instead of realizing that all that I am seeking is the energetic feeling of doing nothing / procrastinating / being lazy.
I commit myself to will myself to walk through the resistance / the drug of the mind / the energetic feeling of resistance as the addiction to the feeling of laziness that has become me - through reminding myself that I am only experiences feelings and emotions of energy that are not real and that if I accept and allow this to exist within and as me and act on it, that I then enslave myself to the "now" of consciousness with equals living in the past where I am lost and abused / self abused by me as my mind.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that if something comes to my awareness that it needs to be done and I become irritated, frustrated, and go into resistance to that point by making justifications as to why I cannot move myself to do it in the moment / or schedule the appropriate moment with follow through - that this is the effectual side effect of living laziness in the past which comes from the source point - procrastination.
I commit myself to will myself in "moments" to stand up and get do the task at hand and stop my participation in the mind saying to my self, if necessary "no. this resistance / irritation / justification / frustration to moving myself in the moment to get something done is "not me" / no who I am as the physical and NOT real - but only an energetic experience as a mind-fuck - thus supporting myself to transcend the drug of the mind as laziness.
I commit myself to take self-responsibility and self discipline for myself in every moment as the breath of Life and direct what is needed to be done immediately or planning ahead with absolute follow-through until it is done both in my life as survival here in this system as it exists today and also in and as my walk / process of stopping the mind, breath-by-breath, with application and follow through thus birthing myself as life until it is done.
I commit myself to walk, breath by breath, through the resistance of laziness to stop my participation in thoughts and feelings as they come up through slowing myself down as breath / through breathing here as the physical where I continually ground myself and am no longer / and less and less overtime in the mind as the mind, but here standing as Life.
I commit myself to no longer accept and allow the mind to suppress me / suppress my expression as who I am as being-ness / the physical / as Life through my accepting and allowing self abuse as giving in to the energetic experience of laziness - by stopping my participation in and as procrastination each and every time it comes up until I am clear, stable, and here moving always here / never living in and as the past.
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