Monday, August 17, 2015

Day 359 – The Desire to say something Profound

Profound:

Verb:

  1. Very great or Intense
  2. Having or showing great knowledge or insight

Noun:

      1.   The vast depth of the ocean of the mind.

 

 

I have this desire to say something profound.  I need to be recognized as saying something profound at times.  I get jealous when others say or are recognized saying something profound.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a desire within and as myself to say something profound.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and have a desire within and as myself to be recognized as saying something profound and moving.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to see others as excited about something that I see as profound as I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become disappointed when and as I see that I am not getting the reaction from other to my words that would indicate to me that they recognize that I have said something profound.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place a positive charge onto the word profound wherein I feel good about myself when and as I say something that is profound and have the recognition and attention from others that would indicate to me that they also see that what I have said is profound.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become jealous / have a reaction of jealously to others who have made statements that are profound and others give them attention for it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my value in saying something profound.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a reaction of feeling inferior to others who have said something profound.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a reaction of superiority when and as I see myself as having said something profound.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that sound signature of the word profound as PRO Found, like a “pro (fessional) found this cool point!”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like a “pro”, when and as I am recognized or receive attention for something that I have said that I believe is “profound”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be recognized as saying something profound.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to store images and pictures within and as myself of past experiences, where beings have said something profound and I reacted with excitement and admiration and thus attached a positive emotional body to the memories of those beings making profound statements as pictures, of which I then created a desire to place myself as those beings who have said something profound because I want to also experience the positive energy, admiration, and superiority experience as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow beings who have made profound statements in the past, stored as memories within my mind / my physical, to represent to me the idea and fulfillment of being important and worthy – wherein, I also create a desire within and as myself to be important and worthy, as a being, by making profound statements, and also feel unimportant and unworthy should I have nothing profound to say or add to a discussion.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go through positive an negative energetic cycles in a conversation with others just based upon whether I have anything profound to say or not.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand the profound reality that we are all in fact equal as our physicality in that we are all made of dirt, even the animals and plants who have nothing to say at all – Yet, regardless of what we have to say or realize we are all equally profound as the physical in that we are all mini universes within each of our forms where nothing of substance is lacking or greater from one being to another.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that when others have profound things to say or add to a conversation, that all I need to do is, one: add the math to see if those words are best for all and can be applied to my own self expansion; and two: consider their statements so that I can expand myself and thus consider their shared realizations as gifts to be grateful for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to generate very intense emotional reactions of awe, admiration, and respect form others, just like I react within and as myself when I hear things profound, by saying things that are profound.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to show myself as having great knowledge or insight in order to arouse emotions of admiration and respect from others.

When and as I see myself reacting in jealousy to others who have said things that I have judged as profound based on their words and also the reactions from others / the attention from others, I stop and I breathe.  I do not accept and allow myself to react in jealousy because I see, realize, and understand that jealousy is a game of self-interest where the root is a feeling of inferiority due to comparison and competition.  I do not allow myself to compare myself and compete with others because I see, realize, and understand that this is abusive to all life because it is of energy and supports my existence as an ego.  Within that, I see, realize, and understand that I am already here, whole, complete, and completely equal with all other beings and all that is here because we are made of the exact substance and thus no need to compare, compete, and get jealous.  I commit myself to breathe, slow down, remind myself that I am here and equal and one and thus clear and stop my participation in this reaction of jealousy.

When and as I see myself going into the desire to say something profound, I stop and I breathe.  I do not accept allow myself to participate in this desire because I see, realize, and understand that I need not say anything at all to establish my value as a being, because I am already equal and one, as the physical, no matter if I say anything at all.  I commit myself to breathe, delete this backchat, and say to myself “NO!  I do not participate in this desire!”  I commit myself to clear myself, slow down and align myself within and as my breathing and my body, and then speak only when realizations come up that can contribute the what is best for all of no self interest wherein I am not participating in any desire to arouse others emotions, respect, or any other emotional reaction that would be of self interest – wherein I am just speaking and moving myself here, as the physical in equality with all as me.

 

Profound, redefined:

Verb

  1. 1.       Sharing realizations that are grounded in physical reality that can assist in the expansion and self-movement of others and self for the betterment of all as one, here.
    Noun
          1.    The vast depth of anything physical
     

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