Day 363 – Desire

Desire is the energy that de-sires one from any kind of a noble status.  To address someone as “sire” is a respectful form of address for someone of high social status, especially a king.  To go into the energy of desire, is to de-sire oneself from this status potential of one in authority, where then one is controlled by the energy of desire as well as one’s pre-programmed existence and also by this world system that feeds off the manipulation and exploitation of our desires.  Desire is the energy that pulls one towards something that one has thought about in the past.  Desire is the energy that pulls one towards one’s destiny, as in towards “this tiny” pre-programmed existence that one is supposed to walk down to fulfill the energy requirements of the self appointed gods and the money requirements of their subservient elite.  Desire is programmed into us through downloads of our parent’s personalities, images, ideas, concepts all seen in the media where we are taught to not be content with ourselves right here as who we are as physical beings, but instead to seek something more to complete us.  And as we chase after that what we believe we need through the energy of desire, we simply follow a path that was already laid before us to walk down in order support our oppressors who require are obedience in order to be our oppressors in the first place.  So, don’t blindly follow your desires.  Always ask yourself “where does this desire come from?” “Is this desire of me?”  And then remember that no matter how hard the desire seems to pull, it can be stopped.  It is just energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by the energy of desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be pulled by the energy of desire towards that what I believe that I desire as if I cannot stop myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to things people in my environment, whether through media or in person, positively where I believe that I am made better, more complete, superior so long as I have that, and then within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the more that I dwell on certain points in my world where I believe that those points will bring me something that I do not already have – that the more I will react with the energy of desire when in their presence / the more that I will feel pulled by the energy of desire when in there presence or when thinking of them.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the bigger that I make a point in my mind / the more that I believe that it will fulfill me / the more that I believe that something will pleasure me / the more that I believe that something will make me happy / the more that I believe that something will make me more competitive where I win more and more / the more that I think something will make me cool / the more that I believe that something or someone will bring me something that I believe that I need or do not have – that the stronger my reaction in desire will be towards these points when and as I am faced with them either in thought or in physical proximity.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that through desire, I actually de-“sire” myself from any point of authority, wherein I am subjugated to the energy of the mind, where within that I follow the pull of the energy of desire, like an obedient slave, into my pre-programmed and pre-destined future / life path, as a slave to the elite of existence giving up my physical to be converted to energy and my money.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realizes, and understand that when and as I react in desire towards something or someone, that this desire was actually pre-programmed either through my downloaded personalities from my parents and / or through my own participation in my mind towards that specific point in my past, where I dwelled on the fantasy or the illusion of what I desire might bring to me that I do not already have or am not already living.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the more that I breathe, the less that I desire.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I create and fuel my own desires through believing in and identifying with the back-chat that I participate in towards that what I desire, in the past.  Within that, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to simply step in and direct myself when and as desire hits and ask, “why do I desire this?”  “Where does this desire come from?” “What do I believe this will give me that I am not already living or do not already possess?”

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that desire does not in any way reflect who I really am, but only reflects my own pre-programming of the mind that I either inherited or created myself in the past.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that desire / where I desire shows me where and what I am not already living as who I am here as the physical, and thus tracking my desires can act as a road map for me to see where I need to align myself within the physical to see where and what I need to align myself as a point to live as myself as who I am – wherein I am in no need or desire for anything other that practical living matters, because I am already whole and complete.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that living in the energy of desire is also de-siring because it is an energy of like a little child who needs to be told what to do and directed because within the energy of desire one is pulled like a child with no self-control towards the object of desire.

When and as I see myself accessing desire, I stop and I breathe.  I do not accept and allow myself to access desire because I see, realize, and understand that this is not me as the physical.  I see, realize, and understand that desire de-sires me and reducing me to the status of energy slave and money slave to the elite.  I see, realize, and understand that desire only exists within the illusion that I am not already whole and complete here as the physical – as if I need something more than who I already am here.  Thus, I commit myself to say in a strict voice to myself, as if talking to a child, “No you don’t!  This is not acceptable!  I stop!” when accessing desire.  From here, I resolve to remain calm and breathe in the energy of desire into my chest and then breath the energy back into my chest where I ground it back into my physical and to do this over and over again until the energy of desire is passed.  From here, I direct myself to ask why this energy of desire came up, what I believe this point will bring to me, and so one and so forth so that I can examine what I desire and then eradicate it from my programming altogether so that eventually I will desire nothing other than what is best for all.