I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself connect a fear reaction / react in fear to the
thought / idea / perception / possibility of not having enough money.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to react to this fear of not having enough
money with comparisons to others who have money and then go into despair and
inferiority within and as my mind as a reaction.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to be completely mind possessed with
imaginations of what would happen to me if I were to not be able to make enough
money such as being rejected by my spouse, and living at home with my mom –
wherein I fear the point of being seen as inferior and a failure by my spouse
and others more than the actual physical consequences of being without money.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to be my own worst enemy where I judge myself
as inferior, less than, incompetent, and not worth all because I have not been
able to attain a point of financial success within and as this monetary system
as it is now.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to allow myself to only be stable when and as
I am making money and otherwise I am unstable within the point that I am
worried, feel inferior, and go into imaginations of what will happen to me if
and when I become exposed as the looser who cannot make enough money to provide
for his family.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to fear and then react to this fear with
imaginations, which generate more fear – all as reactions to the physical
reality of not having enough money.
Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that I am here, I am physical, and thus I am equal and
one with all that is here as physicality regardless of my financial prowess.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to misplace my self value and self worth to
within and as what I am able to accomplish in this monetary system, instead of
placing my self worth and value to within who I am here as the physical and as
the breath.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that no
matter what happens to me, like loosing everything, being rejected by others –
I am still here as the physical and as the breath and as everything as me and
that within and as who I am as the physical I have absolute equality with all
that is here. Within this, I forgive
myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my
fear of loss, fear of being inferior, fear of rejection – all this is only
possible within who I am as an ego manifestation, as self-interest, of the mind
as energy in separation from who I am as the physical. Thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to exist within and as self-interest – where I only want to
win in order to lift up my self-worth regardless of what the consequences are
for the entire human race and regardless of the fact that billions of humans
are living on this planet right now with far more dire circumstances than I am
living in and than I am fearing to be living in.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to be mind possessed with fear energy,
anxiety, worry, and nervousness. Within
this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to move myself
within fear, anxiety, nervousness, and worry energy. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to connect fear / react in fear to the self-directive point of not
moving within fear / not participating in fear – as if fear can protect me in
anyway whatsoever.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot protect myself unless
I am reacting in fear, worry, nervousness, and anxiety. Within this, I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not doing everything that I
can do to provide the best possible outcome unless I am participating in fear,
nervousness, worry, and anxiety.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to identify with fear, anxiety, worry, and
nervousness energy as if it is me and then identify with the backchat and imaginations
that come up as if this is me as well – and within this, I forgive myself that
when and as I identify with these energies as if they are me that this then
results in a mind-possession wherein I am completely separated into an
imaginary world that exists in my mind in separation from physical reality and
thus I am rendered completely helpless and trapped within and as energy and
diminished and limited.
I forgive myself that I
have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I am equal as the
physical no matter what the consequences that I myself created through what I
have been living throughout my many lives.
Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that all consequences I face are here to show my the
truth of myself and what I have been living and thus are gifts that I have
actually bestowed upon myself in order to wake myself up so that I can stand as
awareness as the physical and as the breath and move myself within absolute
equality within what is best for all of no self-interest. And thus, I forgive myself that I have not
allowed myself to simply stand and breathe no matter the consequences that I
may face - where I stand within the
realization that I am equal so long as I align myself within and as the
physical as the breath of which I can do right here and now regardless of what
may happen to me or if I am a ‘looser’ or ‘winner’ in this system.
When and as I see myself
becoming mind possessed with the pattern of comparing myself to others
financially and then fearing the idea of being rejected by my social network,
i.e. my wife, etc, because they may see me as a looser or may not be able to
handle the stress of my not being able to provide financially – I stop and I
breathe. I do not accept and allow
myself to go into this because I see, realize, and understand that the root of
this fear, anxiety, nervousness, and worry is in my separation as a personality
/ ego unit of the mind where I am always competing, comparing, and judging
myself as the best or the worst / a looser or a winner / inferior or superior
of which is also bullshit self interest of the mind. Thus, I see, realize, and understand that I am fucking myself
over by acting in self interest of competing for supremacy which then sets me
up for mind possession of fear of loss / fear of being a looser. Thus, I commit myself to end the competition
game and align myself back to within and as the physical where I move myself
within the principle of what is best for all of no self interest as my starting
point, where I have absolute equality with all that is here as me; and then
also I commit myself to direct myself to immediately breathe and when and as
fear reactions and mind possessions come up to in regards to any point and
specifically to fear of loss / fear of being seen as a looser / fear of being
rejected by my wife / fear of having to live with my mom. I thus direct myself to say in a gentle yet
direct voice to myself “NO. I do not
participate in this. I see, realize,
and understand that the starting point of this fear is my self-interest. I see, realize, and understand that fear
does not help me.” I then direct myself
to breathe deeply in and out where I move the fear energy into my chest area
and then ground it back into my physical where I stand as an equal as the
physical.
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