There was a conversation
recently that I was involved in where someone went on a rant, and then I
reacted to that rant with a rant of my own.
And what did my rant reveal about me?
My rant revealed that I had already been back-chatting about that
individual, and that the specific point that she brought up acted as a trigger,
which activated all the emotional bodies that where attached to the original
back-chats that were stored as memories.
The emotional bodies are what facilitated the emotional reaction that I
had, where I ranted in slight anger, slight resentment, defensiveness, and
self-righteousness.
Yes, see, when I
originally back-chatted about her, the dialogue that I had in my mind got
stored as memories attached with the emotional bodies of slight anger,
self-righteousness, defensiveness, and slight resentment. Then when she spoke again in another
conversation, the nature of her discourse activated (like a trigger) these
memories along with their emotional bodies all in an instant (because I
pre-programmed them to do so through back-chatting, lol), and then these
energies overwhelmed me wherein wherein I became mind-possessed /
mind-controlled until the energy of this finally wore off.
Had I not originally
back-chatted about her, I would not have reacted at all. You see?
Back chatting is like loading a gun.
You will have to release your back-chat bullets at some future point in
time and that future point in time will be a similar event that acts like a
trigger and that trigger will release those back-chat bullets all at once in an
overwhelming energy, just like a gun.
So, instead of back-chatting about others, release the back-chat, right
there in the moment it comes up, by speaking self-forgiveness in the moment and
directed self to align self with the breath; and then also ask yourself
questions like: “why is this coming up?” “What does this person or event
represent to me that drives me to backchat about it?” etc., in order to
transition that back-chat from a projection of self onto others, towards an
introspection into self, so that one can stop back-chatting and change self to
what is best for all.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to backchat.
I forgive myself that I
have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that back-chatting is
like loading a gun, wherein I am loading my physical with energetically charged
memories that will have to be released at some future point in time.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that when
I back-chat, I am compromising myself in that I am setting myself up to become
mind possessed by energy.
I forgive myself that I
have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that through back-chat,
I am pre-programming myself into recurring thought patterns that can eventually
evolve into personalities, all of which activate with certain triggers in my
environment and social settings. Thus,
within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
program myself into an emotionally charge robot with patterns of thought and
personalities through back chatting.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to project what I am living within and as
myself onto others through backchat.
Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
point that finger towards others thought back-chatting about them instead of
looking at myself and asking question to self like “why am I reacting like
this?” “What does this person and their position represent to me that I feel
compelled to back-chat about?” etc.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to go into the desire to backchat because it
feels good.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is ok to backchat because
it does not appear to be harming anyone or anything.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as good or bad, within my mind
as back chat. Within this, I forgive
myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that
within making judgments of others as good or bad, that I am setting myself up
to be reactive towards them or related triggers where the more reactive that I
am shows me that more intense and repetitive my judgments as backchats were.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to justify back-chatting because “I just have
to see where this point leads.”
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a little backchat is ok.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to enslave myself to my mind as personalities
and characters and repetitive patterns through the practice of backchat.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to backchat because I believe that I just
cannot resist.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to project myself onto others through my back
chatting about them.
When and as I see myself
back-chatting about others, or for any reason at all, I stop and I
breathe. I do not accept and allow
back-chat because I see, realize, and understand that back-chatting is like
loading a gun and also acts to pre-program me into repetitive patters as
characters and personalities that will only serve to enslave me to the mind /
energy even more. I thus commit myself
to immediately breathe in a deep breath to assist myself to clear and delete
the backchat when and as I see it come up within and as my mind / as me, and
then breath out; and then align myself to within and as the breath and here
within my physical body. I commit
myself to then question myself diligently as to why I accepted and allowed this
backchat to exist within and as me, what it means to me, what it’s doing for
me, who I am within it, etc – to see what it is that I am gaining from the
backchat energetically, so that I can stop those patterns as well by releasing
them. I remind myself that all that is
here is a mirror of me, showing the truth of me of which is revealed through my
backchat – and thus I am always actually back-chatting about myself. Within this, I commit myself to remind
myself that my backchat can be used as platform to turn the fingers towards me
to see what I am living as the mind, so that I can release myself from those
points and align myself with the physical and live what is best for all.
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