Day 322 - Getting Robbed?

A while back I got a new gas powered weed-eater just to find that it did not work.  The engine would not start no matter how hard I tried.  While trying, I yelled out 'fucking weed eater!’ and then went on to complain about how I'd been 'robbed'- robbed by the system that creates cheap crappy products where keeping the bottom line down matters more than making a product that actually works like it should.  Basically, I expected that weed-eater to work because I paid money for it, and money that I did not really have from the point that although I had the money, there were many others needs that I could have spent that money on.  So, this anger reaction was like a reaction from feeling oppressed by the system and also taken advantage of by unscrupulous robber barons AKA corporations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to complain about the economic / money system as back-chat in my mind over and over again where I accept and allow those complaints to accumulate and layer as memories in my physical body, to a point where all I need is a trigger event, like a weed-eater not working, that triggers an anger and blame reaction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow my weed eater not working to act as a trigger, that triggers an emotional reaction of blame and anger towards the weed-eater and the economic system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, understand, and consider that reacting in blame and anger towards the weed eater and the economic system that produced that weed-eater will do nothing to support me or change the system or fix the weed-eater, whatsoever.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold expectations that 'things should work' as intended when I buy products within the point that I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that even in a 'fair and equitable' economic system, products still may come with faults.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear of being 'robbed' and 'taken advantage of'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define corporations as 'robber barons' and thus judge them as 'negative / bad' in separation of myself as corporations and as everything that is here, as me.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to consider that all that is here, including the encomomic system as it is which produces many faulty products, is a reflection of me and what I have been living within and as myself since the beginning of time; and within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project blame towards the system, corporations, and ‘greedy’ people when in fact, it is me and what I am living within and as myself that has created this system as it is, in the first place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify reacting in anger towards the idea / perception / belief that I have been taken advantage of.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can be taken advantage of.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to step into the self-victimization character where I perceive that I am a victim of unscrupulous business practices.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am disempowered within this economic system wherein I am disempowered through not having enough money and not being able to buy products that work.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify reacting in anger and frustration in order to make myself feel more powerful / get my power back

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect anger with power.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I am in-fact robbing others as well so long as I participate in this economic system as we are all doing the same thing in order to survive and possible thrive – which is that we are all only looking at the money with little or no regard for how products and services actually get here in the first place.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that every time I spend a single dollar on something, that there is likely another being on the other end that has suffered some form of a hardship in order to get that product or service here into existence due to the nature of our economic system.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that “I am in-fact robbing others and robbing the physical” each and every time that I miss a breath and go into the energy that is my mind consciousness system, within the point that energy required to substantiate and fuel my mind, is created by the consumption of the physical irregardless and without consideration of the physical and the consequences that it creates.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the only that I can live here, without in-fact robbing something or someone, is to remain in breath, stable, equal and one within and as the physical in every breath, here. 

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the fact the robbery exists, in any way shape or form, is here to show me how I am already robbing the physical every time that I miss a breath and go into the energies of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame corporations for robbing me and creating crapping products when I see, realize, and understand that I have been busy robbing everything that is here since the beginning of my existence within and as my living as a definition of energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel dis-empowered and taken advantage of in the very economic system that I created as a consequence to what I have been living within and as my mind, of which is a reflection of who I am as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to consider that this current economic system does not distribute money equally; and thus, there are billions of beings on the planet right now being robbed to and unto literal death, starvation, famine, and hardship, just so that I can have what I have as being on the receiving in, luckily, within and as this economic system as it is now.

When and as I see myself in a situation where something does not work as it should or turns out to not be the value that I credited when I purchased it and then relations of anger, blame, disempowerment, and self-victimizations come up – I stop and I breathe.  I do not accept and allow this because I see, realize, and understand that reacting will not do anything to assist and support me, nor protect me, nor is it justified that I react in any way whatsoever.  I see, realize, and understand that we are all robber-barons – robbing the physical in virtually every moment of our existence and thus this economic system, as it exists now with all of the robbery that goes on, is here to show us what we are already living within and as ourselves.  Thus, I commit myself to slow down, breathe, and then remind myself that what is here is in-fact me – and then I direct myself to look at myself and what I have been living that has created this moment.  I commit myself to say out loud – “no, I do not react in anger, spite, self-victimization”, instead I breathe and I bring myself back here in the stability of the breath and of the physical – where I walk within and as the physical and as the breath in equality and oneness with all as me – where I rob no-one, in-fact – and thus live the solution to being robbed and to eventual create a system where no one is robbed as a reflection of my new reality as the physical.  I commit myself to breathe and be here with each and every in breath and out breath while I stabilize myself through these reactions until I am clear.