Day 320 – The Virtual Reality Helmet that is my Mind

 

My mind is like a virtual reality helmet, which creates a virtual reality that keeps me in separation from what is actually physically here.  It works with unconscious and subconscious pre-programmed though, feeling, emotional, and behavioral systems and designs that run in cycles and are all automated.  What comes up in the conscious mind is like the tip of the iceberg of these preprogrammed systems and designs that exist in their entirety in the subconscious and unconscious mind.  When these systems emerge as a thought or a set of thoughts in my conscious mind, I react to them and identify with them as if they are me – and this is the point wherein I get lost in the virtual reality of the mind, and this point is a point that I am / we are constantly facing as the mind is constantly putting thoughts into the conscious mind in order to ‘fish’ me into my mind and keep me within and as the mind thus creating energy for the mind thus perpetuating and guaranteeing the existence of the mind, and also keeping me perpetually enslaved to the mind – so long as I identify with it as me.

So its like, when I see someone with a certain look on their face, for instance, this will trigger thoughts to pop-up in my mind, that are only the tip of the ice-berg of entire pre-programmed constructs as personalities, characters, emotional bodies, behavioral patterns, etc, that exist beneath the surface in my subconscious and unconscious mind.  Then when and as I react to these pop-up thoughts by identifying with these thoughts within the point of almost automatically believing these thoughts to be of me ‘of who I really am’, then in that moment, the entire subconscious and unconscious system will enact and the next thing you know I am completed lost in a pre-programmed personality design until it runs its course / runs out of energy / completes it cycle and I am back here again.  From there, more thoughts pop up in order to ensnare me again.  And I go through this all-fucking day, every day.  So, so long as I am identifying with these thoughts and believing the characters, reactions, personalities, behavioral patterns, etc, to all be me – to be who I am – without question – so long as this is the case – I am living in a virtual reality completely separate from what is actually here, physically.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the cycles of thoughts, that usually emerge in sets of 3 or 5 at a time in my conscious mind, are me, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to identify with these thoughts as if they are really who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the virtual reality that is my mind and then believe that it is really I.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to identify with my mind and define myself as the thoughts that pop-up in my mind – wherein I believe instantly that these pop-up thoughts, that run in sets of 3 and 5, are me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not anchor myself within and as the breath, constantly here, in each in breath and out breath, so as to assist myself to no longer identify with thoughts that pop-up in my mind, and then instead question every single thought that comes up with questions like ‘why is this thought popping up?” “what does this thought represent about me?”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be entertained by the virtual reality helmet that is my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to prefer / believe that I prefer to exist within the virtual reality that is my mind that constitutes my virtual self as pre-programmed personalities, characters, emotional bodies, emotional reactions, beliefs, opinions, etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that being ‘lost’ is really in fact the point of believing, accepting, and defining oneself as the thoughts that pop-up in one’s mind and then going into the related personality and characters designs that those pop-up thoughts represent, without question and in full belief that this who I am / one is.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I can change any point of myself / of my mind as myself so long as I do not identify without as within defining myself as it – but when and as I identify with it and define myself as it – I disempowered myself to stand here as the physical within who I really am, and thus merge within the limitation of the mind and as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that when and as I identify with my mind and define myself as the thoughts that pop-up in my conscious mind, that within this I perpetuate my existence as the mind / as energy / as being ‘lost’ / as being less than life / as being enslaved to the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place positive value in my imagination when I see, realize, and understand that the primary purpose of my imagination is to keep me separated from what is actually physically here and into the virtual reality of my mind where I am enslaved and controlled by constructs of energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place positive value in my thoughts that pop-up within the point that I am valuing my thoughts as who I really am, instead of just recognizing them for what they are – which is the tip of the ice-berg to entire systems of energy as personalities, characters, emotional bodies, behavioral patters, etc which if I engage in these thoughts will activate the entire system beneath and thus perpetuate my enslavement to the mind as energy and separate me into a virtual reality, separated from what is actually physically here as me.

I commit myself to slow down and breathe, when and as I see pop-up thoughts running in my mind, so that I can stop and not participate, identify, or define myself as them – and thus see them for what they really are – which is the tip of the ice berg of entire systems of energy and of the mind. 

I commit myself to always ask myself when and as every single thought pops-up in my mind ‘where does this thoughts come from?” “What does this thought represent?” “Who am I within this thought?” – so that I can assist myself to stop and end the personal identification with thoughts and thus see them for what they actually are – merely energy – merely the tip of entire energy systems that exist within my subconscious and unconscious mind that I have and have been enslaving myself to through my own participation.

When and as thoughts pop-up in my mind of any kind – when and as ideas, opinions, judgments, beliefs, fears, inferiorities, superiorities as comparisons, reactions pop up in my mind – I immediately stop and I breathe.  I then direct myself to ask questions about these thoughts as to why they exist and where they come from and what may lye beneath as personalities, behavioral patterns, characters, etc., and also I direct myself to ask what self-interest these thoughts represent – what am I defending, what am I am defining myself as, etc. – all in order to assist myself to stop myself as the mind and ground myself back here as the physical.  I direct myself to then delete these thoughts and just breathe and be here within and as the physical as me.  I direct myself to note these thoughts and then write them out so that I can assist myself to delete them from me completely and then exist here as real life – as the physical and end the virtual reality experience of life that is me as my mind.