Money is the key to consumption. Money is like energy. If
we do not have money, we shrivel up, starve to death, and die before out
time. But if we have unlimited money,
we are able to have literally anything we want. Yet, our wants are never satisfied because once we have them, we
want more, and even then we still die before our time due to the stress
involved with competing for money and thus resources to consume.
It’s a vicious cycle to be fulfilled through
consumption. It never ends because
fulfillment through consumption is like a moving target; once you hit it, it
doesn’t seem like you imagined it would and then you want more and more to
eventually get that experience that you so desired, but never really obtain. And if you obtain it, then it eventually
ends, just to leave you wanting more.
We live this consumption principle within and without
ourselves. Within ourselves we seek to
experience the energy of happiness, pleasure, superiority, excitement, and
more, of which only comes for a brief time, and then goes away again. This energy that gives us these experiences
that we like to consume within ourselves is created and generated from the
consumption of our physical bodies of which requires the consumption of food in
order to replenish the physical body, otherwise we emaciate ourselves unto an
early death. In our outer-world, we use
money, which is like energy, to consume products in order to fulfill our
desires that come from the consumption of this planet, of which is destroying
this planet. We are indeed consumers
inside and out.
Now, what is rarely considered is the starting point of this
consumption. I mean, if we need to
consume, energy or money, to feel happy and fulfilled, then what is the
starting point of this? Is it not,
unhappiness and discontent? Are we just
then destroying everything so that we can escape our unhappiness and our
discontent, which we created ourselves due to our separation from ourselves,
which we created through not actually living words as ourselves? Like if we just lived the word fulfillment
as our natural expression in every breath, would we even need to consume to
feel fulfilled? Wouldn’t we already be
living fulfillment as ourselves if we were one with our words? But instead, we place fulfillment in the
obtaining of things and ultimately experiences of which is based on energy and
money, which is separation.
This separation which is the starting point of consumption
is destroying our planet as we consume without the consideration of consequences,
and it is destroying our bodies as well because our bodies are like the earth –
both are physical and both support out very lives that we live. No earth, no body, no life. So, instead of living as one and equal with
our bodies, were we live fulfillment as an expression of who we are in every
breath, we live as if the earth and our body are just containers, here to
contain and support us, to convert it to money and energy in order to create
and generate the best possible energetic experience of happiness and
fulfillment; however, not realizing in the process that this creates and
eternal mind-fuck in the starting point of seeking positive experiences, such
as fulfillment and happiness, is the negative experience that is like the evil
twin of positively – it never goes away – its always here in the background,
just laughing as we destroy ourselves through consumption. Positive and negative go together like flies
on shit. You can’t have one without the
other. Thus, we just consume and will
consume and destroy until the end of time unless we stop this bullshit.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
be a consumer, both inside and out.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand, that, seeking fulfillment through consumption of
products, people, and experiences will only lead to the negative polarity
equation of the exact opposite experience within and as myself; moreover, I
forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand
that when and as I see myself going into the desire to consume products and
experiences to make me feel happy and fulfilled that I am already living the
negative polarity equation within and as myself of being unhappy and
unfulfilled, thus fucking myself over through perpetuating the cycle of the
underlying negative experience just to cycled to a temporary positive
experience and then back again.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that the desire to be fulfilled through consumption of
products is a reckless and regardless way to exist that reeks havoc and
destruction on all, of which is shown to me now within and as this existence
and world as it exists now, in all of its evils.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
recklessly consume my physical body in order to convert it to the positive
energy of feeling fulfilled, happy, excited.
Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that when and as live for the experience of positive
energy, that I thus simultaneously create the negative energy equation as a
consequence that thus propels me and cycles me into a viscous cycle of feeling
down and then up wherein I just consume endlessly, like a hamster on a wheel,
and without any regard for all life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that I can be fulfilled though consumption of goods, products,
services, food, drugs, and anything in and of itself. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to believe that I am missing out and thus lack contentment and
fulfillment when and, as I am not able to consume.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that I need those latest fashions, technologies, and other products in
order to feel fulfilled.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
exist within the point of endless desire and want wherein I am constantly
seeking experiences and products to fulfill me, that when fulfilled, just leave
me back at my original starting point of need- thus, I forgive myself that I
have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the total
destruction of this planet through mass consumerism is showing me what I am already
doing within and as myself, both within my body and to this earth.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that I can be fulfilled with energy and money.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
be a ‘fool’ who wants to be ‘filled’ with experiences of energy bought by
money, when I see, realize, and understand that experiences or of energy and
money both of which are also consumed and come to their end leaving me here
needed more and thus I can never be fulfilled with energy or money.
To be continued…
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