I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
watch / observe others speak publicly and then directly compare that to myself
and then go into the belief and fear reaction, that ‘I am not as good as
them’. Within this, I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that going into a fear
reaction can protect me and assist me in public speaking when I see, realize,
and understand that if there are traits that others possess that are beneficial
to them – that I can cultivate these traits within and as myself through
self-forgiveness and self-application and thus I have nothing to fear but only
to gain from others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
allow the point of getting up to speak publicly, when it is my turn, to act as
a trigger for me to go into anxiety and nervousness. Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to
see, realize, and understand that I have conditioned myself to go into an
nervousness and anxiety reaction through my own participation in backchat as
comparisons, judgments, beliefs, and opinions that ‘I am not entertaining
enough. I am not as good as the others;
and that I will disappoint the listeners.’
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself
believe and perceive that the audience did not want to sit through everything
that I had to say and thus, as a reaction to my own judgments, I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to move fast and skip over points that
I wanted to talk about in order to ‘not be a burden on the audience.’
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that I am burdening the audience with all the details of what I am
presenting as if they just want to hear the main points and that’s it and no
more, not even a peep more. Within
this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand
that I created this belief within and as myself in my own mind in separation
from what is actually here, which is just a bunch of people listening to what I
have to say who in actuality have expressed non of these beliefs that I hold
within and as myself.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that all of the judgments, opinions, beliefs, and
criticisms that I projected onto the audience were in-fact coming from me / my
own mind and had nothing to do with the audience.
When and as I see myself going into a nervousness and
anxiety reaction triggered by my turn coming up to speak public ally, I stop
and I breathe. I do not accept and
allow myself to go into a nervousness and anxiety reaction before and during
public speaking because I see, realize, and understand that nervousness and
anxiety do not serve any purpose whatsoever and do not have the ability to
assist and support me to speak publicly.
I see, realize, and understand that nervousness and anxiety show me that
I have either been participating in adverse or unsupportive thoughts, feelings,
and emotions in relationship to public speaking and also that I may have not
been prepared effectively. Thus, I
commit myself to stop all thoughts, beliefs, ideas, perceptions, comparisons,
and judgments that come up that ‘I am not good enough, and that no one wants to
hear what I have to say’ - in the moment that they come up by simply deleting
them and thus not participating in them and using the breath as my anchor to
ground myself and remain here as the physical so as clear, stable, and free
from any backchat or mind energies.
From here, I commit myself to examine myself as to where I may have not
been prepared enough and then allow time for me to prepare so as to be ready in
the future when it is my turn to speak publicly. I commit myself to not use anxiety and nervousness to protect me,
but instead I commit myself to use preparation and breathing to assist and
support me to speak effectively public ally.
When and as I see myself going into the belief and
perception and then projection that the audience does not want to hear what I
say, has judged what I have to say and my appearance as not good enough / not
entertaining enough / not worthy of their time to hear – I stop and I breathe. I see, realize, and understand that within
this, I am projecting my own thoughts, judgments, beliefs, and perceptions onto
the audience as if this were coming from them when it is in-fact coming from my
own mind. Thus, I do not accept and
allow this pattern to exist within and as me.
Instead, I commit myself to remind myself that unless the audience
explicitly states such, that these constructs are coming from my own mind and I
am merely projecting this onto the audience and thus this is all in my own
imagination and is not actually the real in-fact case. From here, I direct myself to breathe, slow
down, and speak from a clear equal and one starting point the fullness of my
message with every detail that I deem to be important with as much clarity and
stability as I possess within and as me.
When and as I see myself making comparisons, I commit myself
to stop all comparisons to others when they speak where I make positive or
negative judgments about them and myself and thus place myself into the
inferior or superior position in relationship to them. Instead, I commit myself to make comparisons
from a practical starting point where I simply look at qualities that the
speakers possess, that I do not, that I may be able to integrate to within and
as myself. I commit myself to stop all
fear in relationship to comparing myself to others and then fearing that I am
not as good as them, but instead simply comparing myself to others and then
moving myself through breath and self movement to acquire those traits within
and as myself – thus I commit myself to moving the act of comparison into and
practical tool of self support instead of a means of creating separation
through creating inferiority and superiority constructs within and as myself.
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