Day 418 - The Flow

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to move myself with "flow" of my day with absolute discipline and determination, where I move myself undeterred completing the task at hand moment by moment, breath by breath, as the breath, from when I wake up in the morning until I go to bed -- doing the same thing every day until I accumulate myself into the best possible version of myself as Life, birthing myself, as Life, from the physical.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into resistance to the flow of my day, and not move in absolute discipline and determination from point to point, starting with getting up at 5:00 AM, then writing self forgiveness, then getting dressed, then driving to work using that time to do self forgiveness, then applying myself at work with absolute discipline and determination giving everything that I have, then driving home doing more self forgiveness and breathing exercises with that time, then when at home tending to chores, my boys, my wife, my pets, making dinner, then bed-time 9:15 PM - the same every day, moving with the flow of the day in absolute determination and discipline, breath-by-breath, moment-by-moment, until it is done.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist the flow of the day by desiring to do something that is not in the designated time-slot of the day.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that moving with the flow, within doing what is here for me to do now, in every moment of breath, is the key to aligning myself with every "here" moment, where I do what needs to be done immediately giving everything that I have, and therefore not living in a relationship with a future projected image of myself through intention, or in memories of the past through regret / regretting not acting when I had the opportunity.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand the power of moment by moment and breath by breath accumulation, where I move myself to act and accomplish each and every task at hand when and as it comes up with absolute discipline and determination - which is going with the flow - and within that, one-by-one, breath-by-breath - I enable myself and empower myself to live what is best for all life, as all as one as equal, as the breath.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I cannot do it all right now in this moment that then I cannot do it at all, instead of going with the flow of my day and doing what I can in the moment and the time that I have available to me.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to squander my time that I could have been moving with the flow, breath by breath and because of this I have been accumulating myself into and as the mind, instead of Life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into regret and despair if I miss the flow not realizing that within this I am living in the past and trapped within my mind.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to simply bring myself back here, to the awareness of the breath, and then apply myself to move with the flow once again - as Life gives me chances over and over again.
I commit myself to move with absolute determination and discipline with the flow in order to maximize my time and bring myself "here" in every moment of breath where I live within and as the presence and the awareness of the breath, not in the past or the future -- wherein I can then accumulate myself into the best possible version of myself - which is Life, wherein I can gift myself the gift of Life.