I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the fear of regret influence me and my decision to live as the physical in all ways equal and one.
I forgive myself that I have have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of the potential of living and experience the fulfillment of the desires of my illusionary characters that I have created in my mind separate from what is actually here as the physical, as real flesh.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have "free" choice to seek happiness and fulfillment where the I as my ego wins by getting what it wants, not realizing that within doing that, I have to allow everyone the same "right" which is impossible because there are always winners and losers as a result, when everyone is blindly seeking their own way, competing for resources.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create imaginary characters in my mind where I am the main star of the show and "god" of my imaginary existence where consequences for my indulgences do not exist, and then attempt to impose these imaginary characters on actual physical reality, and then if I "loose" within the point of not getting what I want and desire, then I go into regret / regreting that I did not get the fulfillment and realization of my desires of my imaginary characters that exist in my mind separate from what is actually here as the pain and suffering of most of existence as consequence of this.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not apply myself with absolute determination, dedication, and discipline, in every breath, to stopping my mind and all of its imaginary characters that I created through the opinions that I form, in every moment of breath, , as if I have a right / a birth rite when in fact I have no right ignoring the reality of what is here as a consequence of this as the extensive abuse here on this planet happening to the "loosers" on the other side of this equation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse and use my physical body like a battery to fuel and charge the imaginary characters in my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not live as the main character, here, as the living flesh, but instead live as the characters that exist in my mind that end suddenly because the energy source is no longer, when the flesh dies and returns to the earth.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself into keeping the characters of my mind going just so that I can experience the fulfill the desires of these characters just so that I wont "regret" not doing so - when in fact regret will always by part of my experience because it is rarely, if ever, that the illusionary world of my characters is actually fulfilled in physical reality - and that within this, the only regret that I need to take seriously, is the regret that I will suffer at death for not standing as the real character that is the living flesh, as the awareness of the flesh, that I had chances and chances to do so throughout out my life, but instead chose to live as the characters in my mind. Thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed and mind controlled by the point of "regret" as self manipulation.
I commit myself to stopping all the characters that exist in my mind as they are nothing but illusions and delusions of granduer.
I commit myself to stopping the point of regret in one breath when and as it comes up and commit myself to remain here as the main character that is the living flesh as who I really am.
I commit myself to stop living as illusionary characters of ego creation to fulfill desires which is of separation and the mind and causes extensive abuse because everyone cannot be a winner in this if everyone is doing the same thing, which is just common sense - thus I commit myself to stop being an abuser of life, to just live the imaginary characters of my mind - wherein I am never really fulfilled because these characters never, if rarely, have their desires realized because what is actually physical reality is not equal and one with the imaginary reality of the mind.
When and as I see myself going into the point of regret, I stop and breathe. I look at this as an opportunity to source out another character that I am living in separation from what is actually here as the physical - that I can then stop so as to align myself within and as the main character that is my flesh.
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