Tuesday, August 12, 2014

210 – The Idea of Myself vs. The Reality of Myself

I’ve been looking at this point of the ‘idea of myself vs. the reality of myself’ and although I am pretty sure that I walk more within the idea of myself rather than the reality of myself I am not sure how to quantify that experience.  So, I ask myself ‘who is it that I believe that I am?  Who do I see myself as?  Who do I present myself as to others?  What are my intentions?’

What I am right now is in a state of change and therefore I do see, realize, and understand that there are many ideas of myself / there are many ways that I have defined myself that as soon as I see these points I stop because I see these ideas are all just self-serving and are not actual in-fact reality.  However, I do see, realize, and understand that every breath that I miss is a point in time where I go into the idea of myself – as who I want myself to be or who I want to present myself as to get what I want, need, and desire.  By missing a breath, I mean, that point in time where I am not here and instead within and as the personalities and characters that are already pre-programmed within and as my mind that activate when I react to something that acts as a trigger in my mind.

For instance, I within the idea of myself, see myself as a peace-loving guy who just wants the best for others.  Yet, when someone does something to me that either directly or indirectly threatens my comfort / my existence then what happens?  Well, then the protect me from harm personality / character activates within my mind where I begin to backchat about all the problems with the other person in relation to this point and how my position is justified, etc.  And what is that?  War.  The outward manifestation of that is war.  The opposite of peace.

Another point would be like “I considered myself to at one time be the voice of the animals and to really love the animals” because I refrained from eating meat.  Yet, one day I realized that my avoidance of eating meat was actually doing nothing to protect the animals because their suffering actually had nothing to do with my avoidance of eating meat.  It actually had to do with something much more deeply ingrained within and as me.  I realized that the animal abuse, such as within corporate farming practices, is an outward manifestation of something that I am doing always within and as myself – and that is participating within my own mind and living as the mind wherein the mind always requires energy and thus the energy is harvested / resourced from my physical body in a highly disregarding way where my physical body is in essence tortured, raped, abused, and eventually even murdered by my mind and its abusive domineering relationship to the body equal and one to the animal abuse in this system-  Wherein, I realized, that the animal abuse is just there to show me what I am already doing to myself.

I used to, at one time, think that I was ‘good’ because I believed in God and did what is ‘right’ until I realized that my belief in god actually, in-fact, supports everything that is ‘wrong’ within this reality such as war, rape, murder, torture, starvation, etc.  How is this so?  Well, because within believing in a God who is good, one is giving one’s self-responsibility away to this god to be good for them thus what is left?  The evil.  That means that one then lives the evil as self.  Why else would one need a good god if on is not already evil and living as such?  Within that point, I once believed that I must be good since I believe in god and do not commit such evil crimes, right?  No, I commit all the crimes and all the evil that is here on this planet through my abdication of self-responsibility to stand as what is best for all in every breath, which is facilitated through my belief in a god who is good. 

You see, within the principle of equality and oneness, one is already doing everything that exists on this planet no matter ones’ position within it because one is in-fact equal and one with everything that is here.  You see, equality and oneness is a physical fact.  We are all of the same substance and substance is just actually a bunch of molecules taking different forms.  Try to imagine a blanket that has been spread across a bed and then one takes certain points of that blanket and wades them up at those points to make different forms.  Would you actually think that because there are different forms created within that very same blanket that each form is a separate manifestation from the blanket and each other form?  NO.  The same with what is here.  Moreover, if the blanket needed washing, would you only wash part of the blanket?  No, you would was the entire blanket.

So, this planet needs washing.  Everything being needs to be healed.  Every being needs to be taken care of within the point of needed basic requirements to live a dignified life.  Thus, we are all one and the same and one an equal within that point.  Thus, we are equal and one with what is here, right not in this physical existence.  Thus, there is no escaping responsibility for every single form of abuse that is here on this planet no matter what your beliefs are or your ideas of yourself are.

So, don’t be confused.  Equality and Oneness is not something ‘positive’ such as new age religious belief.  Rather, equality and oneness is the physical fact of the matter and is the reason why we are all to ‘blame’ for what is here no matter if we are directly participating in it or not – because we are participating in it within and as the relationship that we have created ourselves between our mind and our body.  The body is the physical which is the substance and, as of now, is dominated and abused by the mind / by the energy of the mind – which is represented as the money within this system which we destroy the planet and abuse life in order to create our ‘needed’ and ‘desired’ money.

So, what is our idea of ourselves.  Is it one with what is actually happening here on this planet?  Is my idea of myself equal and one with how I live and exist within and as my own mind in relationship to my physical body which is reflected within man’s / the minds relationship with this planet?  Or is the idea of myself a pretty picture that exists within and as pictures within my mind so that I do not have to face myself as everything here?
Thus, I commit myself to always be pushing the envelope of what is the real me so that I can end the idea of me.

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