Day 217 - Redefining the word 'work', Part II

Writing Creatively on the word 'work'

 Work- An experience where I must overcome harsh obstacles to get what I need, want, and desire.  A barrier between that what I need, want, and desire and me.  A tribulation that one must pass through to get the prize.  A necessity to be 'ok'.  That what separates me from my pictured self as I must do something to get it.  A crushing experience of grueling chores.

 Self-Forgiveness on the word 'work'

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word 'work' and from doing anything that I have defined as 'work', by reacting to it with disappointment and despair when hearing of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word 'work' with a negative charge and define it as 'bad' thus polarizing my experience of work as negative, in separation of myself as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and participate in the experience of 'going through harsh tribulations while at work'.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my experience towards work as harsh and tribulatory is a self-created experience as a consequence of my participation in and the creating in backchat that creates a negative charge associated with work as a consequence of participating in ideas and beliefs that work is harsh and grueling, in separation of myself as living the word as 'work' as who I am in oneness and equality.  Thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a negative, harsh, tribulatory experience while at work because I have accepted and upheld these ideas, beliefs, and backchat towards anything that I have defined as work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define anything that requires labor and also anything that is not what I want to do within and as fulfilling positive experiences that exist as pictures that exist within my mind, as work.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then react in resistance towards anything that I have defined as work thus limiting myself to only doing things that have a positive energy charge, that I myself created within an as myself in separation of myself as equal one living here as a physical being.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that by holding my self-created definition of the word 'work' that creates within and as myself a negative experience towards work and then by defining anything that is not what I want to do as a positive experience as work - that within this, I limit myself to going into resistance towards everything that actually needs to be done on a practical level.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see anything that I have defined as work as a barrier to that what I want, need, and desire.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create stress within and as myself due to my pushing through the self-created resistances to work while at work and while anticipating work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the backchat 'I need to get through this work as fast as possible so that I can relax.'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the negative experience of resistance and hardship while at work instead of just simply forgiving this emotional experience in the moment and instead breathing and remaining here within and as my physical body equal and one with the work that I am doing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto memories of 'grueling working experience' while I was a child and my father was bossing me around all day to do work.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that holding on to these memories and experiences that formed within my mind as a child due to my unconditionally accepting my experiences as 'real' has affected my entire life in relation to work and taking responsibility for my own survival and also what is here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will be dis-honoring myself as child and as my initial experiences towards work if I were to change my relationship towards work and working.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create within and as my self a personality of haste when working so that I can get it done as soon as possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only be concerned with the pursuit of positive experiences and within that, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand how I fuck with myself be creating positive and negative charges and relationships to things and activities because within that point I am then drawn to the positive and resist the negative when in reality all is equal within the point that everything just takes physical action and that my reactions to physical action exist completely in my mind in separation from what is here and also these positive and negative charges that I have created in relationship to things that I need to do limit me to be less affective with those things that I have charged as negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot be happy while at work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that everything will be ok after I go through the tribulation of work.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that sound relationship to the word work has prohibited me from doing any actual real work within the point that I am not here while work but instead in my mind reacting with backchat and negative experiences all of which exist within and as my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define anything that falls outside of a positive experience as 'work'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create stress and a stress reaction within and as work as I rush through my work as I push through to complete work so that I can get to the positive experience of not working.  Within that, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that by participating in the negative experience while working that I am causing stress to build up within and as me until the work is finished at which time I then move to the other polarity of totally wanting to do nothing so as to truly 'relax' from all the 'hardship' of work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define work as hardship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought 'I do not want to work'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the thought is me that  'I do not want to work.'

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that by defining certain physical activities as 'work' while having a negative charge to the word work exist within and as me, that I thus set myself up to go into resistance to all of the things that I need to do of which is not supportive at all whatsoever.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live for the positive experience.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that the positive experience only comes through the negative experience and thus I have trapped myself into endless cycles of negative and then positive experiences within the point of always pursing the positive and running from the negative.  Thus, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to just live here and breathe and then apply myself to do what is required to support myself and build a world that is best for all UNCONDITIONALLY, with no positive or negative experiences associated with what I am doing.

 

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