Day 207 - I am the Mind, I eat Meat

Someone who has walked with Bernard once said to me that Bernard said that 'it is the mind that needs meet, not the physical'.  Now I am not sure if he actually said that, but I would surmise that be probably did as that is in alignment with how I understand things.  However, there is another thing that Bernard said that one must consider, and that is: 'before one can change, one must embrace self for what self has accepted and allowed self to be and become - and change from there."  Now those aren't  his exact words, but they were something to that nature, nonetheless.

So, let's have a look at the mind.  The mind requires energy to generate, charge, and fuel thoughts, feelings, emotions, memories, characters, thought patterns, and the illusion of polarities of right and wrong and good and bad, and also the illusion of separation.  The energy that is required to fuel and charge the mind comes from where?  Answer: The human physical body.  You see, the mind is amazingly advanced inter-dimensional computer system  / program that is complex and sophisticated that it has networks in place that tap into the energy released from the very atom itself, according to the Owl interview on Eqafe.  These resourcing of energy to support the mind comes from the human physical body and the net affect is a constant, unrelenting excavation o/ diminishment of the physical body wherein the substance of the physical body is converted to energy.  Because the mind is busy excavating the physical body, the physical body requires to be substantiated / replenished equally as fast.  Thus, the consumption of meat is necessary to substantiate and rebuild the body that is diminished from the mind's resourcing of energy from it.

 

 

Now, let's look at 'who am I now?  What have I allowed myself to be and become? What am I existing as, the physical or the mind? - the answer is that, within the point  of fully embracing myself for what and who I am at this very moment - I am, in-fact, the mind.  I have merged with the mind to such an extent that if I die today, my mind dies as the physical will no longer be here to support the mind - and since I am the mind, I will likely die with it. 

Furthermore, I am not only the mind, but I am equal and one with all of the outflow of consequences that result from my existing as the mind - which are represented right here in the physical reality in every single thing that exists on this planet, and beyond, in this very moment - both the 'good' and the 'bad' is showing me the folly of my ways, the folly of accepting and allowing myself to exist as the mind and merge within and as the mind.  And there is NO position that I can take that will relinquish me from my personal responsibility for all that is here, as me; NOR is there anything that I can do to actually solve the 'problems' of what is here except one thing - transcend the mind.

So, because I am embracing myself as the mind, as that is what and who I am at this very moment, I see, realize, and understand that I must support my physical body in the way that it needs to be supported while I walk through the transcendence of my mind which will take many years, if not decades.  And while I am walking the solution, of transcending the mind, I will do myself NO good by denying myself what I need as the mind to support the physical.

That is why I eat meat.  I eat meat because meat supports my physical body to substantiate itself due to the constant excavation and diminishment that it goes through while I exist in it as the mind.  Now, notice I said "my" physical body.  While I would imagine that this is true for all humans as we are all enslaved to the mind, I cannot speak for all humans because I do not live in each one's body.  Each one has a specific mind-body relationship and thus I cannot say that everyone needs meat to support the mind.  This is only something that one can answer for one's-self within being self honest within the one's relationship with the body.  Listen to your body from a practical, verifiable starting point and not a belief system, in other words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from me as the mind, by creating within and as myself the belief that somehow 'I am not the mind just because I can see through the illusion of the mind."

I forgive myself that I not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that just because I can see that I do not have to exist as the mind and that I originally once was not the mind, in my original being-ness, that that does not mean that I am not the mind now.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that in reality, through my acceptance of the mind as me over the course of my life, and my many lives, I have merged with the mind and become the mind to such an extend that if I were to die today, I would have a very small chance of being able to survive death- because since I am the mind, I die with the mind at death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can escape culpability from the atrocities in this world by simply not participating in them or supporting them.  I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that no matter my outward actions, I am always participating in all things of this world as it exists now so long as I exist as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that just because I experience that need for meat within the point that it satiates me and substantiates my physical body, that therefore my personal experience is what everyone is also experiencing.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself  to see, realize, and understand that each one has their own specific mind-body relationship and therefore their own eating requirements and thus I cannot project my experience onto them.

I commit myself to stand and transcend the mind.

I commit myself to embrace myself as the mind, because that is what I am now, and from that starting point, I commit myself to walk out of the mind and also support my physical body the way that it needs to while I am still transcending the mind and beyond that point as well.