I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
react in anger, frustration, irritation, and annoyance to events and beings
that have provoked me in a way that is against my own self-interest.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that irritation, frustration, annoyance, and anger are
all ‘projected blame’ – where I am in effect blaming others or events / objects
for my own reactions that occur within and as my own mind as me. Within this, I forgive myself that I have
not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that there is no one to
blame but self for my own reactions, and emotional storms that I myself accept
and allow within and as my own mind; and also I forgive myself that I have not
allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that blame and blaming others or
objects is separation as who is to blame when in fact I am everything that is
here as me?
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to ask myself the question ‘where does this blame come from? What expectations do I hold? What opinions do I hold? What inferiorities do I hold about myself
that have been exposed? What am I doing
that I don’t want to see about myself?
What am I not allowing myself to do or express due to fear of moral codes
that I have not released myself from? ‘ – and within this questions, I forgive
myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the
answers to these questions are at the root / the source of the emotional storm
that generates and charges up unto a point of irritation and then anger. Thus, I forgive myself that I have not
allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the key to stopping
irritation and anger is to ask myself these questions so that I can explore
myself and heal myself at these points so that when another being or event
provokes me in this same way – that there is no reaction within me to begin
with because I have already equalized myself in these points. Thus, I forgive myself that I have not
allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that reacting in irritation and
anger is and acts like a veil – where I veil myself from myself so that I
cannot see me as the root and source of the starting point of the reaction of
irritation and anger and am instead, blaming others for what I myself am
accepting and allowing within and as myself.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that within this blame – I am rendering myself blind
and also thus powerless. Thus, I
forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand
that reacting in irritation and anger, and thus blame, creates within and as
myself a feeling / experience of powerlessness – because within and as blame, I
am powerless as I have separated myself from others as me. And thus, if forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can take my power back by
participating in the emotional storm of anger when I see realize, and
understand that it is actually the exact opposite solution that I need to
apply.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
take revenge on others by participating the illusion of power that is anger and
irritation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
try to destroy others through within and as participating in the intense energy
of the storm of anger as if I am so powerful when I merge myself with that
energy that is the storm of anger and thus in my illusive power I try to
destroy another being with my words as if I am some sort of evil super villain
whose words are like lightning bolts that I fling across the room inflicting
imaginary damage on the other being – when in fact, I forgive myself that I
have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I am in fact
destroying myself, within the point that I am destroy myself self as being ness
because I am diminishing myself as my being ness as I surrender myself to the
mind, and I am also destroying myself as my physically as I resource
relentlessly from my physical body in order to provide all the necessary
resources as energy to support the emotional storm of an anger reaction.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that everything of anger that I perceive as the mind,
is in reverse – I am only destroying myself and I am the one to blame or my own
reactions, and I am only disempowering myself, and I am only taking revenge on
myself within and as anger and even irritation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that a being or object or event ‘deserves’ my anger or irritation
reaction.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
perceive myself as ‘weak’ if and when I stop and anger or irritation reaction
when I see, realize, and understand that it is actually the exact opposite.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that I cannot stand through the storm of an anger reaction. Within this, I forgive myself that I have
not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I as my being ness can
stand with and as the physical like a pillar in a storm – un-phased. And that within this, I forgive myself that
I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the emotional
energy that is the storm of energy cannot stand and maintain its existence
without an energy source and thus if I stand as the pillar of stability,
unmoved, through the torrent of the storm – that that storm will pass and I
will remain – thus showing me that I am indeed standing as power when and as I
stand through the storm.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that when I stand as power as me and express myself as
power by standing here within and as the pillar of stability where I am unmoved
by any energy reactions of emotions and feelings – that that is true power –
then I am living as power and thus within living as power as me, I am in no
need to ‘experience’ power because I am already standing as such. Thus, I forgive myself that I have not
allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my desire to experience
power as within and as the emotional storm of anger is in fact showing me that
I am not standing as power already because if I were, I would not have the
desire in the first place – thus, when and as I see myself stepping into the desire
to empower myself through energy – that is when I stand and I stop and I take
my power back as the physical, as the breath, as me here.
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