Day 247 – The Economics of The Mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compete with others so that I can prove myself to be superior to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pursue the acquisition of knowledge and information so that I can position myself as a superior being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pursue religion and spirituality so that I can position myself as a superior being.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my desire to be seen as a superior being comes from a starting point of feeling inferior through comparison and competition with others.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the economic system of capitalism where everyone competes for the most money is an existential outflow of my own desire to be the best / the most superior being where I am only concerned with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only be concerned with my own self-interest and my own survival.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the economic system of capitalism is the existential manifestation of this point of each being only being concerned with their own self-interest to be the most superior / have the most energy / have the most money, have the greatest experience of self at the expense of all the rest – which is resulting in the destruction of our planet on an existential level and our bodies on a personal level.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that capitalism is the only economic system that can actually work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project my own brainwashing onto any other economic idea whatsoever in that point rejected any other economic system as a reaction within the point that ‘it will not work’ without even considering other ideas.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, and fall for the belief, that if people were to be given money for their basic needs, that they would automatically become worthless bums and a drag on society and that the economy would just collapse – and thus within this point, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that capitalism as it is now is the only system that can work for mankind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that for every action there is a consequence to this physical existence.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that for their to be ‘winners’ within this economic system, there has to be ‘losers’ and thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify, within and as myself / my mind, the system of capitalism and also those who are the losers in this system who have little or no money to survive and take care of themselves through the point that ‘capitalism is the best only system that we can offer because otherwise people would just become lazy bums and the economy would collapse if we were to actually distribute money in a way to take care of everyone equal and one’.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see the absurdity of this belief and justification within the point that our current system of capitalism is and has created the condition that we see now where 4 billion or so people on this planet are starving and the rest or living pay-check to pay-check in miserable job situations and only a few, like maybe 1% to 3% of the total world population are actually living a dignified life.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that competing with everyone for money and resources in order to survive and then, if possible, create for myself the most money and thus highest living standard possible – all within my own self-interest so that I can lift myself up in my minds-eye so that I can see myself as a superior being to all the rest – means war.  Thus, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that war in this world is a direct consequence of capitalism and war is showing me that I am at war with others as well.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the manifestation of war on this planet is a product of those at the top who have more control and power competing with each other for money, resources, status, and position – just like all the rest of the population – but those at the top can actually go to war to compete – so they do.  Thus, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that through my acceptance of this capitalist system and the system of competition with others to be the winner of resources, money, status, position so that I can see myself as superior within my own self interest – gives permission for war on this planet to exist of which this is shown and demonstrated by the perpetual war that is waged on this planet by the elite who are doing the exact same thing as me, just with bigger deadlier toys that they have access too.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expose myself and others to being killed by ruthless people who are ready to kill for their status – through my acceptance of capitalism which is a system of competing with others for status and power at the expense of everyone else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be rich so that I can experience the ultimate sex, power, position, and glorification.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the physical through the polarity that I created through judgment to a point where I created within and as myself desire / the desire to be rich so that I cover up the point that I created within and as myself where I feel ‘less than’ / ‘inferior to’ others through judgment and comparison.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that all desire comes from the opposite starting point and thus within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my desire to be rich comes from the starting point of feeling like I am not enough right here, as who I am in every breath.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that this feeling of inadequacy, inferiority, boredom, and not having enough was programmed into me by the winners in this capitalist system through media, like television, for the very purpose of controlling me and using me to produce their wealth, power, and money.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that all the gurus and spiritual hero’s of this world were really only pursuing their own self-interest of acquiring status, money, and power and that they really never really gave a shit about me or those who they claimed to help – because if they really did, then they would have promoted a real solution where everyone can become winners.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my desire to be seen as a guru or a guide of any kind was always to fulfill my own desires for wealth, power, status, and recognition as a winner in this system – and all of which is from a starting point of lack within and as myself that I created through my own mind in separation of me as all as one as equal and as the physical, of life.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that within my acceptance of the mind as who I am where I pursue the ultimate experience of positive energy which I define as happiness – that I am in no way considering my physical body and the consequences that I am created within and as my own physical through the abuse that it takes as being used as the source of the energy that is needed to create the experience of happiness within and as me.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that capitalism is the exact same thing / manifestation where our current debt-based money system where we as mankind pursue our own self interest at the expense of everyone else and this physical planet is creating the outflow of consequence where our planet is being destroyed to such an extent that we may actually go extinct in the not so distant future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is no other way than this current system.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the debt based currency that man uses today is one and equal with the pursuit of positive energy which is actually debt based – in that when one pursues positive energy, negative energy is automatically produced that manifests in another part of the world – just like when we pursue positively, negativity is automatically produced – as this is the law of polarity.  I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that this applies even within self wherein if one pursue happiness, for instance, then sadness or another negative emotion will automatically come up when whatever is being used to create happiness within self goes away or runs its course.

I commit myself to live here and walk in equality and oneness within and as myself through the daily application of facing myself in all ways that I am existing in the polarity of the mind, through facing myself in self-honesty, and writing, and then also breathing so that I can align myself here within and as the physical and as the breath thus stopping the polarity of the mind that I have been living for thousands of years in blind acceptance. 

I commit myself to live without energy and to explore every single desire that I have because I see, realize, and understand that desires all have the starting point of some form of belief and experience that I am lacking in some way and thus are keys to ending my existence in separation from the physical. 

I see, realize, and understand that our economy is driven by desire to be more than, to be better than.

I commit myself to create myself as the living example that we can exist without energy and thus no longer walk in the polarity of the mind and thus within this create an economic system where all are truly equals.