I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
exert my anger as an act of revenge on someone as if they actually deserve
it. Within this, I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to justify reacting in anger and exerting
anger towards and upon another within the belief that they ‘deserve’ my anger /
my wrath.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that within and as the construct of revenge, I am in-effect blaming
others for my own emotional reactions to what is here, in separation of me as
what is here. I forgive myself that I
have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I alone am to
blame for my own emotional reactions to what is here, and that what is here is
merely showing me who I am within and as my own mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
see the emotional storm brewing from within my mind, to feel the energies
emerging from within my solar plexus, and then go into a belief that I ‘must’
act on this anger / irritation as if this is me. Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to
see, realize, and understand that I am not energy, and that I as the breath /
as the physical do not react ever in any way as the physical is constant and
stable, like a pillar. Thus, I forgive
myself that I have not allowed myself to re-align myself with the physical the
moment that the energy of the storm of irritation and anger emerges within the
realization that I can stand through the storm as the pillar and thus ground
the energy of the storm back into and as self as the physical thus ending the
storm as the director of the storm.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
justify reacting in anger within the belief that the ‘storm is too powerful’
when I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and
understand that the storm is of energy and energy is dependent on the physical
for it power and thus if I merely stand as the physical / as the pillar / as
the breath that the result will be that I do not charge the storm and the storm
will loose its power over me and thus end.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
be ‘swooped up’ by the torrent of the storm of the emotional energy of anger
that energizes and charges up rapidly from within / from within my solar plexus
as a consequence of my participation in backchat where I blame others and
justify anger and hold grudges within and as my mind. When I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to simply
delete this backchat that fuels the storm of anger the moment that I see it
arise within and as me by simply taking a deep breath and pausing for a moment
to realign self with the physical, here and thus stand through the storm until
it ends.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
connect fear to the standing as the physical through the storm of the energy of
anger as if ‘I will be seen as weak, or inferior, of be able to be taken
advantage of by others’ if I stand and stop my reactions. Thus, I forgive myself that I have not
allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I have in-fact got it in
reverse – that if I stand and stop my reactions, this demonstrates true power,
the strength, and true equality where I stand as power and strength as self and
live equality where no on is ever taken advantage of – when and as I stand as
the physical / as the pillar that is grounded and unmovable through the
emotional energy of the storm of anger.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that reacting in anger is actually ‘doing something about that point
that acted as a trigger for my anger’ – as if reacting in anger is doing
something self-directive – when I see, realize, and understand that reacting in
anger is the exact opposite of doing something about anything. Within this, I forgive myself that I have
not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that being self-directive
means slowing down, standing as the pillar that is unmoved by the energy of
emotions until the emotions pass, and then directing self to have an assertive
conversation with the other being in order to come to a solution that works for
all and is best for all.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that irritation and anger is nothing other than
projected blame – where I project blame on others for what I myself am either
doing or wish to be doing and just suppressing. And thus, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that when I react in even the slightest bit of
irritation, that I am in fact blaming someone or something and thus within this
blame I am veiling myself from myself where I am not able to see myself for
what I am in-fact already doing or desiring to be doing.
CSC
When and as I see myself stepping into the irritation
character – where I react in irritation, annoyance, and frustration to other
beings for any reason whatsoever, or objects that act as inconveniences or
block my way in some manifestation – I stop and I breathe. I do not accept and allow myself to react in
the irritation character because I see, realize, and understand that this is of
energy, that I am not energy, and that therefore participating in this
reaction, or any reaction, is self-dishonesty / self-separation. I also see, realize, and understand that
within this reaction I am projecting blame and thus whatever point I am
reacting in irritation to is showing me something about myself that I do not
want to see. I also see, realize, and
understand that in that moment of reaction there will also emerge all kinds of
blame, justifications, fears, and backchat of all kinds that will lead me into
that reaction if I accept and allow myself to participate in it.
Thus, I commit myself to, when and as I see a reaction of
irritation emerge within and as me – to, as soon as I see it / identify it, stop this reaction by
breathing the energy in to my lungs / chest area and move it around a bit
within and as my chest thus slowing down in the process where I step in and remind
myself either out loud, if possible, or within my mind that I am not this
energy, that I have directive power over this energy if I just take my stand as
the physical, and thus I breath out releasing this energy and grounding myself
back here as the physical as I take my stand as the physical as I take my
directive power back as a physical being – thus stopping my reacting in
irritation in its tracts as I do not accept and allow even the slightest
reaction of irritation. If this results
in activations of further backchats within and as my mind, I see, realize, and
understand that I am suppressing the reaction of irritation and thus not
stopping it in-fact. Thus, I commit
myself to also breathe in these backchats again thus stopping them and then releasing
them through the out breath as I ground myself to within and as the physical
unmoved by any energy. If the backchat
continues, I commit myself to speak self-forgiveness out loud or do further
writings where I record the exactness of the backchat that remains in my
writings so that I can face it and totally release it.
When and as I see myself stepping into the anger character –
where an emotional storm of energy is emerging from within my solar plexus, and
also my mind where backchat is running wild and fears of weakness and being
taken advantage of due to memories where others have been doing the same thing
to me before and I reach a ‘until here no further moment’, feelings of
powerlessness mixed with desires of revenge and exerting power all justified
within blame all come up at once seemingly overwhelming me where I also feel as
if I need to give in and go with the energy of the storm and act out this anger
and even feel that I will be empowered by this storm as I merge with it as me
--- I stop, and I breathe. I do not
accept and allow this anger to exist within and as me because I see, realize,
and understand that I am not this energy and that this energy is dependent upon
my participation. I see, realize, and
understand that although this energy of anger seems powerful / too powerful for
me – that in reality it is not. I see,
realize, and understand that if I stand as the pillar that is grounded to the
earth, unmovable as the physical and as the breath – that I will remain unmoved
by the storm of anger and that I will also cut that storm short through within
and as my standing as the pillar that is planted in the earth / as the physical
/ as the breath. Thus, I see, realize,
and understand that the sooner I take my stand as the physical, the sooner the
storm will pass and the more likely that I will stand through it unmoved. I see, realize, and understand that I am
only projecting blame and that the anger is really towards self. I see, realize, and understand that I stand
as self-power when I stand unmoved through the energy of the storm. I see, realize, and understand that in the
moment of the storm as it attempts to pull me in – that in that moment I may
feel as if it is too strong for me – but that this is an illusion and not true
– that if I stand in that moment as the physical as the breath of life, I will
remain and the storm will pass. I see,
realize, and understand that taking revenge, or trying to direct others through
the energy of anger will result in only things that I will regret. I see, realize, and understand that if I
accept and allow myself to be consumed by the energy of anger, that I will
in-effect be giving my power away and diminishing myself and thus suppressing
myself further and deeper into the prison that is my mind. Thus, I commit myself to – as soon as I see
the energetic storm of anger arise within my solar plexus along with all the
blame, justifications, and other backchat the initiates within my mind as I
begin to speed up in my mind – to take my stand as the director o me and stop
this as soon as it arises within and as me by taking a deep breath in where I
draw this energy into my chest area and move it around a bit / gathering it up,
and then release it through the out breath.
I commit myself to not say another word or move physically until I have
cleared myself of this energy through this process. I commit myself to, when possible, speak self-forgiveness out
loud in a strong stern directive voice where I am taking my power back and say
‘no, I will not accept and allow this.
This anger is not me. This anger
is no solution. I take my stand as the
pillar that is unmoved by this energy.’
Thus, I commit myself to stand as the physical and stop my reactions in
irritation and anger. From there, I
commit myself to investigate in further writings why I reacted in irritation
and anger so that I can release those points as well.
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