Day 242 – Anxiety and Nervousness In Business Transactions, III

When and as I see myself reacting in anxiety, where a destabilizing electrically charged energy erratically rolls around my chest area and then back chat activates like ‘oh shit, what am I going to say’ and I feel all frozen-up, like I cannot speak, I stop and I breathe. I see, realize, and understand that anxiety serves no purpose whatsoever.  Thus, I commit myself to, if the social situation permits, immediately break the hold the energy has over me by taking 3 to 5 quick and deep breaths in and out through my open mouth and say to myself in a stern, stable, resonating voice ‘I am here’ between each breath- in an effort to break the energetic hold and ground myself here within and as my body.  Once I break the energetic hold, I commit myself to speak self-forgiveness statements in a stable, stern, and resonating voice such as ‘I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in anxiety.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pave the way for this anxiety reaction by not being here within and as myself in the past.’ ‘I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear this anxiety reaction as if I cannot control it’ – until I am clear and stable and calm once again.

When and as I see myself stepping into the nervousness character where nervousness possesses me and I am not able to communicate at ease in a stable voice with another being, I stop and I breathe.   I see, realize, and understand that the nervousness reaction is here because of lack of self trust in me as the physical, here.  I see, realize, and understand that nervousness is a way for me, as my mind, to handle a situation where I don’t have a pre-programmed personality or character to do this for me.  I see, realize, and understand that nervousness is no solution for my lack of pre-programming, and that the solution is to breathe and ground myself back to here, within and as the physical as me where I speak equal and one with others as me, of no mind.  I see, realize, and understand that nervousness as a solution to times where we are unsure of ourselves seems normal as we have been accustomed to our minds living our lives for us, but that the solution to place me as my directive principle of me where I direct myself as life in every here breath will come about over time through application.  Thus, I see, realize, and understand that the nervousness character will diminish and become less and less the more that I become more and more my directive principle of me here.  I see, realize, and understand that nervousness also comes about due to lack of preparation and thus shows me that I have not prepared in whatever application I react in nervousness to.  Thus, I commit myself to apply myself in my process diligently over time where me, as my directive awareness, increases over time more and more and me as my mind diminishes over time to a point where even if I react initially with nervousness, I can easily identify this, breathe, and bring myself back to here as my directive principle.  I also commit myself to examine all the areas that I react in nervousness to, and to then apply and prepare myself in those areas so that I can be confident in my interaction and application in future events.

When and as I see myself participating in back chat where I am judging the outcome of business transactions as ‘good or bad’ where I place a positive value on my winning the transaction and a negative value my losing the transaction; thus within this, I create a polarity equation where I am hoping and desiring for the good to manifest and fearing the worst to not manifest, I stop and I breathe.  I see, realize, and understand that by doing this I am setting myself up for future anxiety and nervousness reactions where me as my mind literally shut down due to not being able to decide ‘who to be’ in order to get what I am hoping for / desiring and avoid what I am fearing.  I see, realize, and understand that behind all this is a lack of self-trust – where I lack trust in that I can handle whatever happens to me, ‘good’ or ‘bad’.  Thus, because of this lack of self-trust, I rely on hope and fear and there manifested consequences of anxiety and nervousness to direct me and control me, as if this will help me in any way whatsoever.  Thus, I commit myself to speak self-forgiveness and / or delete these judgments, fears, desires, and hopes the moment that I myself stepping into the related backchats, until I am clear.  I commit myself to remind myself that I am here regardless of the outcome and that as the physical and as the breath, I can stand through whatever comes my way, as who I am is not dependent on outward circumstances; but that who I am is constant, the same, and always here as all as one as equal as me.  I commit myself to therefore, realign myself with myself as the physical where I am not dependant on energy to control, direct, or protect me because I see, realize, and understand that the energies of hope, desire, fear, anxiety, and nervousness is an illusion of control.