Saturday, November 29, 2014

Day 260 – Who am I within money, II?


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be insecure / not know how to act / what to do while in the presence of those who make more money than me.  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see those who make more money than me as superior and then react in inferiority, insecurity, and nervousness while in their presence.  Within that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create within and as myself the desire to avoid being in the presence of those who make more money than me and are more successful than I am at my age.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can ‘equalize’ myself with others through the acquisition of money and success.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only see the money / the carrot at the end of the stick, without considering the consequences and ramifications of how that money came about, what processes were needed, what resources were needed to bring that money into existence.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have only allowed myself to see the positive side of money – the end result of having money where one is able to hide in the security of being able to buy things to present to the world a picture of how one would like to be seen by others – and then to ignore the negative aspect of money, which is the creation of money wherein I ignore the suffering, the hardship, the debt, and the environmental destruction that was required to bring that money into existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be defined by money, where I am unworthy of standing in the presence of others unless I make as much as them or more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the old saying ‘he who dies with the most toys wins.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear money within the point that I fear making a lot of money because I believe that I am not worthy of making a lot of money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect fear to making a lot of money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to polarize my relationship to money where I fear it and desire it at the same time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having any money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being ripped off – where I react in anger when and as I perceive myself to being ripped off / not getting what I believe that I paid for.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that this very economic system is a system of ripping others off so that a few can have everything and that I am always ripping someone off whenever I buy something within the point that all are virtually compelled to work for less than what they would agree to if they had any power in this system, and that resources are stolen / taken from countries and regions that are subjected economically by this system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself as empowered through money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself as disempowered when I spend money, especially large sums of money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that power is achieved through having lots of money.  Within this belief, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I am creating the experience of being disempowered, within and as myself, so long as I do not have any money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to idolize the rich as being icons of true success, and see being rich as something positive, when I have not allowed myself to realize that the processes of becoming rich requires the very negative conditions of slave labor and resource extraction and abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that money only serves to allow those who have it to present pretty pictures of themselves to the world so that they can continue to gain more access to money which only serves self interest – that there is no need for money beyond basic needs and being empowered to move the system to reflect that what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as a looser unless I have lots of money.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that, as evidenced in this physical reality right now, there must be far more losers’s than there are winners in order to support the construct of being rich.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have ignored the realizing that the winner’s in this system must create more loser’s in order to keep on winning.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create within and as myself the desire to present myself to the world in a certain way that can only be done through having money of which I feel empowered or disempowered to be ‘who I really am’ depending on if I have money and how much money that I have. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that within this current economic system, most people must be ostracized from the system otherwise we would destroy the earth far faster than we are doing today; and thus, some of us where given the ability / personality design and signature to make lot’s of money wherein these types typically knew what they wanted to do from when they were young and also have the personality characteristics to be able to a success and empower themselves within and as this system, while the rest of humanity are left to fend for themselves.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that those few who make it from rags-to-riches, in this current economic system, where pre-programmed to do so in order to create ‘hope’ and be a symbol of ‘hope’, as in ‘you can do it too’, for the rest of the masses that were not so fortunate to have such a personality design in order to keep the worker slaves moving and not give up in their dead-end go no-where slave jobs that are required to be done so that the rich can continue to be rich.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that becoming rich and successful, in this system, is a function of one’s pre-programmed personality design of which has nothing to do with who one really is as the physical.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the amount of money one makes is simply a function of one’s personality design and also opportunities that by a matter of luck within the position of where one is born in this world – and that this has no reflection on what or who one really is and what one is really capable of.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give permission for this system of competition and winner takes all to exist through my tacit approval of this system by my participation in this construct.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that everyone is simple competing for the best personality design that can bring them the most money and within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to present myself in ways only to bring about the most money possible into my reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow the hearing of someone that I know as being super-successful trigger emotional reactions of fear, insecurity, and then belittle of others in order to bring them down to my level, to exist within and as me.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that money should have always been and should be now - just a practical tool to measure value and exchange goods that can be used to support my existence on this planet.

I commit myself to equalize myself with my relationship towards money where I money becomes a practical tool to take care of my basic needs on this planet.

No comments:

Post a Comment