So, a lot has been said in this current thread, but looking
back, I think it is safe to say that what I have been getting at is that my
starting point needs to be clear that I no longer live for the experience of
energy, but rather I live within and as principle. And what is principled living?
Principled living is where my starting point for everything that I do is
within principles and not positive or negative or even neutral energies. So, for instance, even though I may have
been more ‘pure’ as a baby or in the beginning of my existence in
inter-dimensional form, if you will, I was not living by principle; so thus,
even though my motives, back in the beginning, may have been more ‘pure’ /
‘innocent’, because I had no principles to live by, slowly, overtime, through
ignorance and naiveté, I slowly but surely trapped myself within the energies,
constructs, systems, and resonances of the mind where now I am compelled to act
and move in ways solely on how I ‘feel’ in a moment of which this ‘how I feel’
is nothing more than a program, that I co-created, through my own participate
and thus is not actually physically real – BUT, is created physically real
consequence none-the-less.
I have seen also that I am the living word. I am living my words and thus words and how
I have defined them and myself within them is how I live them. Up until recently, I have been living words
through positive and negative polarities created through my self-definition in
relationship to words and the consequences are that I have trapped myself
within patterns wherein I am always seeking positive experiences and running,
hiding, and suppressing negative experiences.
Therefore, redefining words in order to purify the polarity charges that
I have created around them is imperative to principled living.
The main point of this thread is to establish, for myself,
and correct my starting point to that of principle and to be able to simply ask
myself in the moment ‘is this principled living or am I chasing or hiding from
some form of energy equation based on my self-definition?’ And then to, of course, breathe, clear
myself of any and all energies, and only move myself within practical physical
considerations.
This is an important point to get aligned because it is my
starting point for everything that I do.
So, it applies to everything that I am facing as the mind. If my starting point is not clear, then I
will only apply myself here and there – only when I am feeling up to it – and
thus, as you can see, never really standing in totality.
And this is my commitment to myself this year and beyond –
To stand on principle. To stand on the
principles of living to my utmost potential as a physical being of substance of
life, and not as energy. To stand on
the principle of what is best for all in every breath and in every point that I
face – not just some – all points. This
is the big ‘push’ – where I push through and stand on principle, always.
I forgive myself that I have I accepted and allowed myself
to only live what is best for all when and as I feel like it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that I am energy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that I am the back-chat that comes up in my mind where I talk myself
into shit that is not best for all.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that I will be loosing something if I were to stand on principle and no
longer accept and allow any form of energetic experience to direct me. Within this, I forgive myself that I have
not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that within the point of
living by principle and no longer living for the experience of energy – that I
AM IN-FACT GIVING SOMETHING UP AND LOOSING SOMETHING – And that is me as an
energetic phantasm that lives for self-interest and survival wherein I will be
lucky to survive death. Within this, I
forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand
that when I stop and say ‘no’ I do not accept and allow this and then breathe
and stand and stop the energies, that I am in-fact loosing myself AS energy, AS
self-definition, AS the mind-consciousness system that has been living for me
as me for all these years. So, within
this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see,
realize, and understand that this fear of loss is based upon real loss – the
loss of myself as and energetic program – and that this will ‘feel’ like a
loss, at first, but that to ‘give in’ to this feeling and fear of loss and then
accept and allow self to be directed by energy a consequence is the point where
I need to stand and say ‘NO, there is no fear of loss. Fear is not real and I am only loosing
myself as the limitation and abusiveness of the mind as energy, BUT I am at the
same time GAINING myself as a real physical being of substance, of life, here
in equality and oneness, and principle.
So, therefore, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that it is not a loss that I am facing, but a trade – a
trade where I trade in my old ways as one who lives for the experience of
energy and has defined self within and as the point of energy, for real
physical living of no energy where I stand as the true director of self and no
longer submit to energy.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to live the
principle of what is best for all in every breath – guiding me in thought,
word, deed to always direct myself to do what is best for all within what has
the best possible outcome, as and outflow of consequence, for all. Within this, I forgive myself that I have
not allowed myself to ask the question ‘is this best of all? What is the outflow of consequences of
this? Am I being directed by energy or
am I directing self within the breath, here?’ and then use these questions to
help sort out and remind myself to breathe, to step in as the director of me,
and live here within principle, of no energy.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to fully realize and live the point that ‘I am responsible for my own thoughts,
words, deeds, patterns, personalities, desires, and experiences of all types –
and then to forgive myself for all transgressions and then simply change myself
to ensure that I take full responsibility for who, what, and how I am and
through this know that I can trust myself to always be honest with self and
others.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to live
within the principle of self-responsibility – where I realize and act on the
point that I am responsible for what I accept and allow inside me / my mind, my
relationships, and everything on this planet as it is occurring right now – and
that only I have the power and ability to change that which I see is
compromising who I am, what I live and how this affects others. Within this, I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to create patterns and personalities in
relationship to desires, fantasies, and expectations within and as myself / my
mind as a consequence of my believing that I am these energies and thus within
that point consigning myself as the slave to the very energies that I myself
create within my own mind through my own participation and thus give my directive
power away.
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