Day 280 – Redefining What It Means To Live, Part III

When and as I see myself defining myself as “I am not living / not alive / not experiencing myself to the fullest’ and then go into reactions of fear and resistance to simply doing what is practical, best for all, where no experience directs, me I stop and I breathe.  I do not accept and allow myself to define myself in anyway whatsoever, and thus I commit myself to remind myself that I am here, physical, breathing, and that equal and one living means that I do what is best for all and that the experience of negative or positive is not what is in charge of me.  I am in charge of me.  I direct me here in every breath.  I commit myself to remind myself that this feeling of ‘not living’ will pass if I just simply breath and do not participate in it.  I see, realize, and understand that these ‘negative’ emotions of feeling bored, etc, with ‘life, feeling like I am missing out if I were to do and act only within what is physically practical, are not real, not me, and only energetic entities that I myself have created within and as myself through my participation in my mind over time that have accumulated to a point of mind possession as personalities and characters that have taken directive control over me.  I thus commit myself to breathe through the resistance and fear reactions until I am clear, and then can ground myself here, in the physical, and then I direct myself to do what is practical where no energies are directing me.

 

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that real living is where I live here, in the physical, in every breath, unconditional of my circumstances.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that real living is where I take everything into consideration and move myself within what is best for all regardless of any feelings or emotions that come up.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I have created all the negative and positive energies as characters, backchats, emotions, feelings, ideas, beliefs, constructs, personalities, and mind possessions that step in and direct me to act within self-interest / the self interest of fulfilling myself within positive experiences in order to fulfill my self-definition – through my own participation in my own mind without any awareness.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to live the principle of self responsibility, realizing that I am responsible for what I accept and allow inside of me and that I have the power to change what I see is compromising who I am, what I live, and how this affects others.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to live the principle of self-awareness – to be aware, to see, to recognize my own thoughts and my own mind – and to differentiate through self-honesty, what is real / physical and what is energy / not real / and my own creation that has taken over me and directed thus far – and to see that my thoughts, my self-definitions, my ideas of what living is about, and the fulfilling of pictures, ideas, opinions, beliefs, and self-definitions is not what is best for me and best for all.

 

I commit myself to slowing down and breathing throughout my day within the point of applying the principle of self-awareness and self-responsibility.

I commit myself to always asking myself questions – where does this energy come from?  Is it me, or my mind? 

I commit myself to reminding myself that I do not have to participate in anything – that it is my choice and that I can stand as the physical and just simply breathe.

I commit myself to living the new definition of what it means to really live which is simply to live here in every breath where I take the stand as the director of me and commit myself to releasing myself from the control of energy through self honesty, self forgiveness, self-awareness, self-purification, and self-responsibility.

 

What does it really mean to live?  I am already living, here, as the physical, breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘there must be something more than me right here in order feel alive.’ 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that seeking the feeling of feeling alive through the fulfillment of self-definitions shows me that within this I am already dead, suppressed, and not really living at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and thus feel as if I am not really living. 

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand the absurd point of believing that I am not living / experiencing life and thus missing out when in fact I am here already breathing.

 

I commit myself to remind myself that I am already here and that I need nothing more than me right here.