I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that this resistance character is me, the real me, when in fact it is
nothing more than a system of pre-programmed energy that I myself created
through my blind belief that it is me and that it is representing what I really
want and how I really want to live – when in fact, the back-chat that comes up
along with all the excuses and justifications are all of energy, designed to
pull me back into my mind and into experience based living.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to remind
myself of my starting point when and as I am faced with resistance, where I say
‘no, this is not who I am. I am not
this energy. I stand and live principle
where I take self-responsibility for who I am in every breath to live here as
the breath and as the physical of which is best for all.’
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to live a
starting point of living for energy and experiences of which is revealed
whenever I ‘give-in’ and except the resistance character that I created within
and as myself as the real me, and thus believe that it is speaking for me as
me.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that in those moments where things slow down and my
mind starts throwing-up thoughts as back-chats as ideas, pictures, desires,
beliefs of boredom, beliefs that I am not living, beliefs that I am missing out
– that none of this is me if and when I stand and live my starting point of
living as principle, as the physical, and as the breath.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that the resistance character, where I go into
resistance towards the stopping of my mind and thus the stopping of experience
based living, is designed to perpetuate the existence of energy of the mind and
of me as the mind in order to survive – which means that the resistance
character is connected to the point of survival.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that I will end or will not be able to experience live to the fullest
if I were to stop the mind and all the little things that I like to do that
stimulate the mind as positive energy experiences within and as myself – and
thus I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and
understand that what I am really doing here is living the point of survival as
the mind as energy.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to live the
starting point of principled living where I live the principles of what is best
for all in every breath of which is to remain here and breathe, in every
breath, dependent on nothing / no experience to entertain me, keep or make me
happy, to satisfy me, or pull me out of some form of a negative experience such
as boredom.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to connect a
fear reaction to standing as the breath and living as principle within the
point that this would represent a ‘loss’ to me of myself as the mind / as the
pre-programmed personalities that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and
become.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to take full
self-responsibility to breathe and be here in every moment of breath, but
instead have accepted and allowed myself to ‘pick and choose’ that what I stand
on, and when I stand on points, and then to make excuses and justifications as
to why I should not stand. Within this,
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand
that this is not principled living where I apply the self-responsibility to
live what is best for all in every breath.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in back-chats as excuses and justifications and comparisons such as
‘just this once’, ‘I’ve got to live a little’, ‘this is where I am in my
process thus it’s ok’, ‘I can’t live my whole life like this.’ ‘Look at everyone
else and what they get to do.’ ‘I am missing out’, ‘I don’t have the power /
self-control to resist.’ ‘In this case living for experience is ‘justified’’
When and as I see myself stepping into the resistance
character where I, when faced in those moments of desire for something ‘more’ /
something ‘energetic to entertain, fulfill, stimulate, or gratify me, start
generating and creating a bunch of excuses and justifications such as ‘just
this once’, ‘I’ve got to live a little’, ‘this is where I am in my process thus
it’s ok’, ‘I can’t live my whole life like this.’ ‘Look at everyone else and
what they get to do.’ ‘I am missing out’, ‘I don’t have the power /
self-control to resist.’ ‘In this case living for experience is ‘justified’’,
finally reach a point where through participating in this back-chat and
believing it is me believe that I cannot resist – right in that moment, I say
‘NO. This is not me. I am not this
back-chat. I am not this
resistance. These desires for energy,
stimulation, entertainment, gratification, the feeling of happiness, the
feeling of relaxation, the feeling of pleasure, and the fears of losing self if
I were to not participate, are all of the mind of / of energy and are all
creations of energy, constructs, systems, characters, and personalities that I
myself created over-time in my own mind and that these energies, as me, are
literally ‘fighting for their survival’ and thus will end and dissipate if I
stand and live as principle / the principle of taking self-responsibility to live
what is best for all which is to live here as the breath, as the physical where
no energy exists and directs me and tells me what to do. I commit myself to stop playing these games
with myself and to stand and live here in every breath and no longer accept and
allow energy to direct me and tell me what to do. I see, realize, and understand that if I had been living by
principle where I live what is best for all in every breath as a principled
matter, where no self-interest to have, form, create, and participate in any
type of energetic experience is directing me at all, that these energies as
back-chats would not even exist in the first place. Thus, I commit myself to stand as the physical / as the breath
and live the point of principled living into every breath thus stopping the
energies and stepping in as the director of me where I decide and direct what I
do free from any positive, neutral, or negative energies directing me. I commit myself to slow down and breathe
throughout the day so that I can develop my self-awareness to be better able to
identify energy and thus assist myself to release the energies through
self-forgiveness in the moment as systematically as possible. I commit myself to live from the starting
point of the principle of moving myself as to what is best for all in every
breath, which is to live here as the physical free of any energies as the
director of me from the starting point of self-awareness where I am aware of
what is energy and what is real equal and one living. I commit myself to consistently write and examine myself in
self-honesty so that I can see the difference between living as energy and
living as principle as the physical. I
commit myself to apply myself to live what is best for all.
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