I
forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand
that free-will does not actually exist outside of moving self within the
discipline of what is best for all.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see discipline as a
form of deception, wherein through discipline I am not being true to myself /
to my ‘free-will’ to just simply do whatever comes to my mind on a whim.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word
discipline to the word disciple and then go into a resistance towards
discipline because of have connected it the word disciple, of which I have
negatively charged.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the word
disciple as negative / bad, in separation of myself; and within this, I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the word discipline as
negative / bad.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist discipline.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect fear to
discipline; and within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to react in fear to the idea of discipline / being disciplined /
administering discipline.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid discipline
because of the memories, as a child, of being disciplined wherein through being
disciplined I felt as if I was being forced to do things against my will and
thus this inhibited my ability to express and be who I am.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that
discipline is limiting to my self-expression because of memories that I hold,
within and as myself, both of being disciplined by my parents and of the
negative reactions and judgments that I had as a child to discipline.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect discipline to
control / being controlled because of memories that I hold, within and as
myself, of feeling controlled by my parents as a child through discipline.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the duties
and requirements and the self-application that is necessary to assist myself to
create myself as the best possible version of myself through discipline because
of the negative reactions that I had towards discipline as a child growing up.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect fear to
disciplining others and my children because I have projected my own reactions
as memories to being disciplined onto them, as if they are reacting / will
react negatively towards discipline just as I did within and as my own mind as
a child to my parents – wherein, I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to connect fear to the point of invoking the same reaction
towards discipline that I had as a child.
I
forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand
that simplicity within the sound signature of the word discipline, wherein it
sounds like ‘this I plan’, wherein through the point of living discipline within
and as myself as who I am – I am able to enable myself to execute ‘this I plan’
/ what I plan – thus, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see,
realize, and understand that through discipline, I empower myself to execute
what it is that ‘this I plan.’
I
forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand
the simplicity that is here within the sound signature of the word discipline –
where it sounds like ‘this apply in. – wherein this sound signature tells me that
through discipline I enable myself and empower myself to apply in / within self
whatever it is that I choose to do, be, and become.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create within and as
myself the belief that discipline is a hindrance towards reaching full
potential to express myself as who I am - not seeing, realizing, and
understanding that who I am here can only be expressed in its fullest through
the discipline of applying myself here in every breath where I move myself within
and as the stability of breath here through the discipline of stopping my mind.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see discipline as
‘this is appalling’ through the similar sound signatures here; and thus through
seeing the act of discipline as appalling, I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to use this as justification to go into resistance
to the act of empowering myself through discipline.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the sound
signature of the word discipline, where it sounds like ‘this I ply in’ of which
shows me that through discipline, I literally ply / bend / turn myself into
whatever it is that I commit myself to.
I
forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand
the sound signature of the word discipline, where it sounds like ‘this I plan’
of which this shows me that through discipline I enable / empower myself to
execute that what it is that I plan.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist discipline
because of memories of being disciplined by a disciplinarian as a child at
school where in I reacted negatively and formed negative judgments as a child
towards discipline and disciplinarians.
Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not want to be seen by others as a disciplinarian and thus have avoided the
point of discipline as much as possible.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist discipline
both of myself and others because of the justification that I have created
within and as myself that ‘I do not want to seem or be over-bearing.’
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit my full
potential both in this external world and within my own mind because I have
resisted the point of discipline because I have judged discipline as negative
due to memories and thus have created limitation within and as myself as a
consequence.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge ‘rules’ as
negative and thus resist discipline because I do not like rules.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist discipline
because I have judged rules as negative and thus do not want any rules.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the belief
within and as myself that rules limit self-expression, when I see, realize, and
understand that when rules are applied in a way that is best for all, that
rules can enhanced and enable self-expression.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist discipline
because I have associated it with punishment.
Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
judge punishment as negative due to memories as a child being punished and also
due to the harsh nature of our penal system.
Within this, Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed
myself to see, realize, and understand that the correction administered in connection
with discipline that I remember as a child does not necessarily have to be done
in the same way and, thus there is no reason to avoid discipline just because I
am mind fucked on the point of punishment.
Thus, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to assert myself
within the point of discipline and punishment to find other solutions to
maintain discipline that I can create and apply as the creator of myself, here.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid discipline
because of the justification that I have created within and as myself that ‘I
do not want to over burden myself with things that I do not want to do.’ – when
in fact, through my lack of discipline, I have consigned myself to a life of
not doing what I want to do because I lack the discipline require to apply
myself / to ply myself in / to apply my plans to reach my full potential and
thus enable myself to do things that are of myself that I am not even aware at
this time – through discipline / disciple-in myself.
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