Day 310 – Responsible

Responsible is a word to look at to see if I am really living it.  What is my relationship with this word?  I view being responsible as self-limiting to a certain extent.  Like, I can’t be too responsible because then I would not be able to enjoy life and life spontaneously.  I have also connected this word to boredom, mainly due to past memories where as a child every time my parents told me to be responsible it was always in connection to doing something that I did not want to do.  Thus, I judged this word and living this word as boring and thus I have a resistance, partially, to being responsible and taking responsibility.  Regarding taking responsibility, I see this as a bit self-limiting for the same reasons above.  Like, I can only go so far with responsibility.

Dictionary definition:

: Having the job or duty of dealing with or taking care of something or someone

: Able to be trusted to do what is right or to do the things that are expected or required

: Involving important duties, decisions, etc., that you are trusted to do

Sounding:

• Response-able

Charge: negative

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that being responsible is self-limiting within the point that taking responsibility would mean that I would have to do things that I do not want to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the point of being responsible with boredom, due to memories from when I was a child essentially interpreting the point of responsibility as doing something boring / that I don’t want to do, and then when I am done, my ‘responsibility’ is over.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not responsible for everything that is here, when in fact, I am everything that is here and everything that is here is a reflection of what I live within and as my self / my own mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not ask myself ‘how am I responsible for this’ when and as things come up that I have blamed others for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in blame towards others in my world as being responsible for what is here; when, I see, realize, and understand that everything that is here is either directly or indirectly created by me as a consequence of what I am living within my own mind.  Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that when and as I perceive that I am not responsible for a point that exists in this world, that this because of the extent of separation that I have been living within and as myself as well as a consequence of my not paying attention to consequence through my many lives in this existence. 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is ever a point that I can cast blame that I am not actually responsible for in some way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I am in-fact limiting myself and my self-expression through the point of not taking self responsibility for everything that is here, bringing every thought, emotion, and feeling under investigation and ending my existence as the mind thus equalizing myself with all that is here as me thus taking full responsibility for what is here thus setting myself free to live my fullest potential as life, as substance, as all of existence as me.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to ask myself the question, whenever the point of blame comes up: “how am I responsible for this?”  “Am I directly responsible or indirectly responsible?”  What can I do to take self-responsibility for this point?  If I am directly responsible, what physical actions can I to take self-responsibility?  If I am indirectly responsible, then: “what thoughts, personalities, desires, opinions, judgments, points of separation, etc. to I hold within myself that is being reflected back to me through this point that I have cast blame on?”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for what is here and then within that, not take personal responsibility for it; thus, within this point, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that through blame and thus not taking self-responsibility I thus limit myself / place limitations upon myself to not be able to be ‘response-able’ to and towards what is here, meaning that through blame and projection / not taking responsibility for everything that is here, that I thus dis-able myself / dis-engage myself from standing as the solution and thus limit myself and my self-expression.

When and as I see myself placing blame or projection on others, circumstances, or the laws of physics, for what is here, through my own backchat or words, I stop and I breathe.  I do accept and allow myself to cast blame because I see, realize, and understand that to cast blame I disable myself from moving myself towards what is best for all.  I see, realize, and understand that through not taking self-responsibility for what is here, either as a direct or indirect consequence of what I am living, that I then dis-able myself from taking any form of correct action whatsoever.  I see, realized, and understand that through taking and living responsibility within and as myself as my living expression, equal and one, as a self movement, that within this, I enable myself to be able to respond to what is here in a way that is best for all and in all ways.  Thus, I commit myself to live self-responsibility as who I am in every breath by always checking myself to see where I blame, whom I blame, who I blame, what I blame and also what I project of myself onto what is here, and then face these points of blame by releasing them through self forgiveness and then breathing and bringing myself back here as one and equal with all as self.  From here, I look for the solution and then enable myself to move as the solution through taking / living self-responsibility.

Creative Writing on Responsibility:

• The point of which one makes self ‘response-able’
• Never blaming and always looking within for the source of all that is here
• Being entrusted with tasks or commitments or important decisions that are best for all

 

Responsibility, redefined:  To enable and empower self to be response-able to and towards all tasks, duties, commitments, beings, and decisions by looking at how self is the source / cause of all that is here, either directly or indirectly, and then making the appropriate adjustments within self, to live what is best for the direct situation, and best for all, in all ways.