Day 318 - Always be moving

In one of the Soul of Money interviews it is noted that when we allow ourselves to 'fall', then everything that we have walked is, or at least starts to be, reconstituted by the mind - because when we let ourselves 'fall', we are no longer standing within those points that we have already transcended, or at least identified, and thus our mind is standing there in our place, once again.  So, 'falling' would be those points in time when we allow our mind to have it's place, once again, in our lives where we are no longer standing - standing within the definition of breathing and directed ourselves here as the physical.  I see this in myself where I, as my mind, make justifications as to why I cannot stand in this moment and why I must allow myself to 'slip' and 'fall' because of boredom, or anger, or frustration, or blame, or whatever comes up in the moment to allow me, as my mind, to take its place once again and then me, as the physical, steps aside.  Thus, these moments of 'falling' prolong process where we / I am time-looping / having to face the same points again and again / over and over because I have refused to stand always here as the breath, but instead have only accepted and allowed myself to stand sometimes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and participate in excuses and justifications of why I cannot stand and always be here taking my place within my physical body and my mind as the director / the directive principle of me always / in every breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the justification that 'I am bored' in order to allow my mind to take over directive principle of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate  in the justification and belief that 'I need something more than what's right here as the physical / the breath to be happy, entertained, and feel like I am really living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live for energy and the experience of energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot stand here always as the breath and as the directive principle of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will be bored and unsatisfied with life if I am to always live here standing as the physical and as the breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create resistance within and as myself as the mind to standing here as the physical in every breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take a back-seat to the mind and allow it to direct me within and as the personalities and characters that it consists of.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and participate in the back-chat that 'I will be missing out on life / living / experiencing ' if I were to simple breathe and be here within and as the physical and stop the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be entertained by the virtual reality that is my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value in the virtual reality that is my mind.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that when and as I give myself over to the mind / when and as I allow myself to fall, that my mind steps in to live for me and thus reconstitutes itself within all the points that I have thus far transcended - thus, within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that when and as I accept and allow myself to fall, that what I am setting myself up to time-loop and thus prolong my process of transcending the mind and living here as the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create within and as myself the belief as a form of justification that 'there are certain times that I just cannot stand, such as in an anger, frustration, or blame reaction - or when I just get too bored being here in the physical and thus need some form of stimulation.'  Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to how I have created within and as myself the definition of what it means to live to how I am living within and as the physical and thus us this definition and comparison as justification to accept and allow myself to fall.  Thus, within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have faulty / system oriented / mind virtual reality oriented definitions of living instead of having worked out this definition of what it really means to live within and as a physical equal and one living definition that I can stand within, always.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be moved by the backchat as justifications, rationales, excuses, beliefs, comparisons, and fears that come up - where I convince myself as to why I cannot stand here in this moment - instead of simply breathing and deleting these constructs when and as they come up and asserting myself to stand and be here within and as the breath and the physical - thus taking my place and stand as the director of me here always in every breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have connect fear to the point of 'not really living' and then be thus directed by this fear / this negative equation to move into a more positive experience of myself such as doing things that I have defined and have a positive relationship to - instead of simply being here within and as the physical always breathing and doing what is most practical and best for all where no negative or positive energy is directing me.

When and as I see myself being moved and directed by the fear of being here within and as the physical and simple breathing - as if 'I will be missing out of life and really living', I stop and I breathe.  I do not accept and allow myself to be moved by fear.  I see, realize, and understand that this fear that just breathing and being here as the physical will result in my living a unfulfilling life, is not real and exist only in my mind as energy and is based on a faulty definition of what it really means to live.  Thus, I commit myself to define what it means to really live and also define what my actual purpose is in this life.  I commit myself to stop this fear of 'missing out on life' deleting these fears as they come up and breathing deeply in thus moving the fear energy in my chest, and then breathing out slowly - and then repeating this over and over again until the fear dissipates and I remain here.

When and as I see myself participating in backchats as excuses, justifications, rationales, beliefs, comparisons, and opinions as to why I am missing out in just living here as the physical in every breath, I stop and I breathe.  I see, realize, and understand that I must remain here taking my stand as the director of me in every breath in order to not time-loop and thus quantify my process so that I can transcend the mind as quickly as possible.  I see, realize, and understand that when and as I accept and allow myself to fall, that this means that the mind steps in and takes its position back as the director of me and thus within this point being to reconstitute itself / re-establish itself as the directive principle of me.  Thus, I commit myself to remind myself to of this when and as I am faced with backchats competing for there position over me - and thus within this reminding myself I give myself all the reason to stop and delete these backchats and then start the breathing process once again where I breath slowly in and out assisting myself to clear and delete all these constructs from my mind.  From here, I direct myself to ask myself if what I am considering doing is best for all, practical, and of an equal and one relationship within and as the physical - or is what I am considering doing of self-interest, spite, and also of the mind in some pursuit of an energy fix.  From here, I direct myself to stand, breathe, and no longer accept myself to fall.