Day 20 – Sleep

The following self-forgiveness on sleep on pretty much just copied from other blogs on sleep, but I found this to be very helpful in begining the process of reducing my sleeping hours to about 6 in order to open up more time to write:

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the thought that ‘I am tired’ is who I am, believing that ‘I am tired’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe a thought.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give power to a though in the belief that it is me; that it is me telling me that ‘I am tired’.

 

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to have a thought tell me that I am tired.

 

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that ‘tiredness’ exists.

 

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be subject to energy.

 

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be controlled by energy.

 

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to experience energy in the belief that energy is me.

 

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I am energy.

 

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that energy exists.

 

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be directed by energy.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to be the directive principle of me in my world.

 

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to give my responsibility to energy to manifest in my world to tell me how I must be and how I must experience myself, instead of me expressing me.

 

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the experience of a though is what is called ‘energy’. 

 

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that ‘energy’ is when I think a thought, I believe that thought is me, I manifest and experience that thought through voicing that thought and then I experience the ‘energy’ of that thought.

 

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that ‘energy’ is when a system and I come together as one and I think I am that system and give power to that system and experience that system as me.

 

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see what energy consists of in my world to make sure that I don’t allow myself to be controlled or directed by energy.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to by controlled and directed by a thought that tells me that I am tired which manifests that energy and within that I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that what manifests the energy of ‘tiredness’ is the thought that ‘I am tired’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will be tired if I don’t sleep for long hours.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will be tired if I don’t sleep for at least 8 hours.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to condition myself to be tired if I do not sleep for at least 8 hours.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to program myself with belief system ideas.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to condition myself, program myself, with a belief system that I need to sleep for 8 hours or more, so when I actually sleep for 5 or 6 hours I am experiencing so-called ‘tiredness’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am tired and that I look tired.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in whatever my mind says.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in every thought my mind tells me.  In other words – I am believing everything that my mind tells me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe what my mind says when it is telling me that I am tired and that I should be sleeping right now.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in the idea of ‘tiredness’ that the mind presents to me as reality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my human physical body is depleting because I did not sleep for 8 hours of more.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in the idea of depletion.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in the idea of sickness.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in my mental thoughts and ideas.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to condition myself to believe in whatever my mind says as the ‘truth’ as the reality.  But in fact the mind has no reality – it does not tell me the truth.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to realize the so-called ‘tiredness’ I am experiencing is actually experienced by my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the so-called depletion that I am experiencing is actually experienced by my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that it is the mind that feels tired – it is the mind that feels depleted.  So, in other words, there is a drop in mental energy because the mind runs on energy and the mind is addicted to energy.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to the energy of my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regenerate the mind, regenerate the ego of my mind, regenerate the energy of my mind, through constant participation in thinking and thoughts.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as the energy of my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the energy of the mind goes up and down and it needs attention.  The mind needs to fight arguments and debates to sustain itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to the attention I am getting from other people.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to the attention of comments, approvals, and validations that I get from other people.  And within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that in all this what I am really saying is: “give me some energy to sustain my mind.  I need your energy, your attention, which sustains my mind.”  And therefore it sustains self-perceptions and self-definitions.  Basically, the mind is all the formations I’ve accepted and allowed about myself and others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to crave energy in the form of attention from others so that my mental energy, my mind energy, can be maintained. 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pick and choose from whom I want attention.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to crave for attention because I am actually craving for the attention they are giving me – the attention by looking at me or even just giving me a glance, just looking at me, listening to what I am saying, talking to me, communicating with me, they are a form of attention that I seek.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want other people to look at me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live as an energy addict.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to the energy of my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live and exist and manifest myself as an energy addict instead of being here as the breath of life I live as an addict who is constantly looking for an energy rush.  (in my case it is in the form of looks, approvals, comments, conversations, debates, contentions, and just looking for attention – phone calls, emails).

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to crave for the attention of others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do, say things, or even make a joke, all to get attention from others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as the energy of my mind, believing my energy is what all life is all about.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need and must have sufficient sleep otherwise if I don’t – I’ll be tired.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become dependent on sleep.

 

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that ‘lack of sleep’ exits – and that if I were to ‘lack sleep’ – I will be tired.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define ‘lack of sleep’ to tiredness.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that tiredness exists.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that tiredness is an idea / belief designed of the mind, accepted and allowed as ‘normal’ due to ‘lack of sleep’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that sleeping 8-9 hours or more is healthy for any human physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define sleeping as healthy.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize, see, or understand that sleeping is a system of the mind used to alter, change, and update itself while I am unconscious.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use and abuse sleep as an escape from my reality, manipulating the reason and cause for sleeping through ‘making it sound acceptable’ through believing sleeping 8-9 hours or more is healthy and required.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that the body only requires rest for a maximum of 6 hours and that’s it.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that the mind is the directive principle of me – as it has the ability to induce perceptual tiredness, which is the mind consciousness systems signal/sign that it requires regeneration and rejuvenation which is done through sleeping 8-9 hours or more.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that tiredness and sleep exist within the mind of the mind and it is not who I am.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed, influenced and controlled by the mind- through it informing me when its ‘tired’ then using me to ‘sleep’ while it rejuvenates and regenerates and replenishes itself as it takes me on the journey through my subconscious and unconscious mind – to allocate manifestations to pre-occupy me during another day while I’m awake.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my mind to use me – I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that abuse exists within self, through accepting and allowing myself to be abused by the mind – and because I accept and allow this within me, I accept and allow this within the rest of the world as me.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that ‘sleeping’ and ‘awake’ is also polarity manifestations of the mind – I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that it’s the mind that sleeps and it’s the mind that wakes up and thus, that I  have never really lived.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that the ‘normalcy’ of sleeping 8-9 hours a day is accepted and allowed by all of humanity within and of the unified consciousness field because it’s the exact amount of time the mind requires to allocate manifestations within the unconscious mind, then to merge them into the conscious mind as the mind wakes – I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that the manifestations merged into the conscious mind, extracted from the unconscious mind is of the unified consciousness field from other human beings – yet – the moment I believe a thought to be me, as me, I make such manifestations my own and in this moment I infuse other human beings’ thought patterned behaviors and habits within and as my mind consciousness system that exists within me and thus such manifestations become me.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that the mind is at work while I sleep conjuring and gathering manifestations of any and all kinds extracted from the unconscious mind to merge into my conscious mind so I believe that such manifestations to be me because it exists in my mind and so the mind consciousness system within me ‘upgrades itself’ every evening I sleep.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that dreams are used by the mind consciousness system to divert my attention while I sleep to not actually understand and know what’s really going on while I sleep; therefore, dreams are meaningless.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that who I am exists as thoughts, feelings, and emotions needing lots of sleep for a healthy life.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that lots of sleep, 8-9 hours or more, is healthy for the mind consciousness system within me as that which I have accepted and allowed myself to become.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that the difficulty of waking up in the morning is my emergence as the mind from the unconscious, to the subconscious to the conscious mind – which takes a while – then when I’m awake and up its actually me as the conscious mind actively participating within and of the unified consciousness field.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define who I am as sleep/sleeping.

 

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to define who I am as tired or tiredness.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the pre-occupation and attention diversion of the mind as thoughts/feelings/emotions to not accept or allow myself to experience myself as the breath of life as the moment – here as who I am.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that who I am is the breath as the breath as the moment – here.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and think that if I sleep less than I usually do, I will be tired the next morning instead of realizing that I am designing the very experience of tiredness in the morning through the perceptual belief and idea that less sleep equals tiredness.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the idea and belief of ‘less sleep than I usually have’ equals tiredness the next morning which influences the experience of me within and throughout the entire day, instead of remaining here as the breath as me in every moment.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to wake up in the morning as the breath as me as the moment as me.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that it’s the mind that struggles to wake up in the morning – as it merges with me as me from the unconscious mind to the subconscious mind to the conscious mind – where it eventually later wakes up completely.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that in the mornings when I open my eyes and I accept and allow myself to participate in one singular thought – I activate all the workings / findings / manifestations the mind retrieved and obtained within the unconscious mind while I was being pre-occupied through dreams – referred to as sleeping and then allow and accept all such manifestations to infuse within me as me; and thus, I become such manifestations as thought patterns and behaviors within and of the unified consciousness field.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that sleeping is literal sleep – the complete submerge of me, as the mind does its work because I as who I am is not aware.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that awakening and awake that exist within and of the unified consciousness field is the awake and awaking of the mind in its entirety – that is not to be awake, but to live practically as who I am which is here as the moment as the breath as me because for ‘awake / awakening’ to exist – ‘sleep / sleeping’ must exist – the awake /awaking for the mind of the mind and the sleep/sleeping for me of me, disappearing into the background within myself until I no longer exist and only the mind as what I have accepted and allowed myself to become exists as me.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that I have always been asleep – the actual sleeping of me as the manifested experience thereof is proof – as the mind exits always, the mind is always active –and thus proof that I have never actually practically lived before as who I am as the breath as the moment as me.

 

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have never actually practically lived as who I am as the breath as the moment as me – but that I have always accepted and allowed the mind to control and direct and influence me through believing and perceiving that who I am is thoughts/feelings/and emotions.

 

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to separate myself from the human physical body of life – from the breath – not realizing that breath is life as me nurturing the expression and manifestation of life as the human physical body – I am here – I am moment.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be submerged within and as myself through allowing and accepting myself to be and become the mind consciousness system – because I have believed the lie that I need to be and become the mind consciousness system to survive and exist within and as the unified consciousness field.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become the mind consciousness system – to be of thoughts, feelings and emotions – because it’s what and who everyone else has become as those that have gone before me which I have believed and trusted to be ‘my example’ – instead of realizing that the unconditional innocence of self-expression of life that exists as the moment as the breath of life as me – the simplicity of practical living exists here as the moment as the breath within and as oneness and equality as the human physical body as the manifestation of life as life of me as me.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that I am simplicity.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that I am the breath as life of life as me.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that the very manifestation of creation as me of life within and as oneness and equality is here as the human physical body of the breath of life as me.